Crazy || Hyunlix

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Jeongin watched chan just barely speak. It's like he didn't want to even be here. "Have you eaten?" Chan asked, a little concerned. "No, not today, I forgot." Jeongin smiled a little.

"I'll make you something."

"No its okay."

Jeongin said.

"Jeongin, I'm honestly worried about you, seriously, you look like you haven't ate, you're being talked badly about by someone, you're bestfriends dropped you."

"It's my fault chan, I deserve it."

"But that doesn't mean you starve yourself jeongin, you have to eat."

"Im not starving myself, please don't yell at me." Chan sighed. Noticing the sensitive state,"im sorry." He apologized, he continued to watch jeongin.

"Chan, I don't even want to live." He chuckled,"jeongin, don't fucking say that." Chan was serious about this.
He genuinely cared about jeongin, although it didn't seem like it in the beginning. But jeongin sometimes deserved better, relationship wise of course.

"I did something stupid, I don't understand why you're still my friend, I've ruined everything."

"Jeongin, you haven't ruined our friendship, I love you as a friend always."

"Why?"

"We've been through alot together,
I can't just drop you because of someone else's opinion."  Jeongin sighed.

"Im not a good person anymore, I'm a terrible person." Jeongin said. His voice trembling. Chan pulled him into a hug, tightly holding him. Jeongin just hugged him back. Imdetially breaking down. He but his arms around chans neck. Crying into his shoulder.

"No, you aren't jeongin  you made a couple mistakes. But you're still you."
Jeongin didn't even have the energy anymore. He just kept his body weight against his friend, the warmth compressing on his own body.

He just wanted to crawl in a hole and dissappear. How was he going to spend his days? He had a class with jisung, the two always talked in that class as well. Infact they sat by eachother. The professor was a dick they weren't allowed to move.

"Thank you." Jeongin said softly. He let go of chan. Standing up to his feet.
Chan and jeongin were roommates, but he sometimes left jeongin alone for hours. There was no telling where he went. Jeongin also didn't want to know where chan spent some of his nights at.

"I'll make dinner. You're favorite, so cheer up." Jeongin giggled, watching chan smile. Putting his hands in the air attempting to dance. "Don't ever do that again." Jeongin said sternly, a frown.

"You're such a hater."

"Nu uh."

Jeongin pouted. The two spent the rest of their night joking around and trying to make jeongin forget about the harsh reality of his life.

TIME SKIP

Jeongin sat his bag down gently. As jisung was already sitting down next to him. He just bit his lower lip, already nervous enough, he sat down. Looking down at his lap, he didn't even want to look at jisung.

His phone buzzed, jeongin looked at his phone, noticing that it was chan.
Have a good day. Is what it read. Jeongin just knew today was going to be terrible. He closed his phone back not choosing to respond.

Jisung who just glanced at jeongins phone and then him just sighed through his nose, the awkward air was so annoying.

Even lunch was bad, chan wasn't here, he sat with his other friends. So he sat alone, looking at his food. He could hear the laughs and giggles from some peoples tables. Because they had friends, they deserved friends.

Jeongin didn't even want to eat, he just stood back up. Slowly walking to the trashcan. Letting it fall down in the trash. He opened his phone, noticing that chans message still remained.

It truly wasn't a good day.

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Idek what to say here,
Besides the fact I hate geometry and FUCK THEM SHAPES AND TRIANGLES.