Crazy || Hyunlix

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No I can't. This is wrong. Hyunjin thought, feeling the guys lips against his. He had a boyfriend, why did he not want to pull away? Yet the lips reminded Hyunjin of felixs. So he couldn't seriously pull away.

He held the waist of yeongjun.  Tightly pulling him closer. "N-No wait." Hyunjin pulled him off, letting go of him.

"I can't do this with you."

"Why not? You're boyfriend isn't even here. You didn't even think about him when you kissed me."

Between the achohol and whatever words this guy was saying. He couldn't concentrate. His head was almost spinning and he was starting to feel irritated.

"Plus, we could have some fun.."

He slowly put his lips against hyunjins. Once again deepening the kiss, hyunjin hated how he was sort of into it, the soft moans coming from the other side. It was different from felixs, certainly not better but it didn't cross hyunjins mind in his drunken state.

"No fuck get off of me."

Hyunjin slurred, he pushed the guy off of his lap, standing to his feet.
"Yah, are you just gonna leave?" Hyunjin heard behind him, he called a taxi, since he wasn't gonna dare to drive.

Which would take him home quick enough back to Felix. He rubbed his temples that were pounding, his stomach was light. He quickly opened the door, looking at Felix who was sitting on the couch, his leg bouncing up and down.

"Hi babe." Hyunjin said.

"Did you have fun?"

"W-What?"

Hyunjin asked.

"With that other guy, was it fun? He's certainly better than me isn't he."

Felix stood up, his face was showing straight anger. "Felix no I —"

"You should've told me earlier I was such a fucking bother to you, I didn't know I was a inconvenience, was I not good enough to satisfy you in bed? I should've listened to people around me in highschool, you'd just get bored with me didn't you."

"No i didn't get bored, i-i still love you Felix I don't know what happened at the bar."

Hyunjin begged, his voice was almost trembling. Grabbing onto Felix's soft hand. "I don't understand why you would say those words to me hyunjin, you told me you loved me, you held me like you loved me, you made me think that I meant something to you."

Felix was on the verge of tears, his voice coming out in small cracks.
"Felix I do love you, I love you so much I didn't mean for whatever happened today happen i couldn't control myself and lost control I won't do it again I promise just please —"

"No hyunjin, I'm moving out.."

"You're leaving?"

Hyunjin asked, he was obviously in the same state as Felix broken and mentally not prepared for the next part.

"Felix please listen to me, don't leave I can't live without you."

"So why would you cheat on me? You were with another guy since 10 pm, it's 12 am hyunjin."

"I didn't mean it.."

"You didn't mean it? — are you a child? You're just the same as you were in highschool, dumb and foolish, I should've known when you were being distant you were loosing feelings."

Hyunjin grabbed felixs wrist. He didn't even know what to say, he wanted to hug Felix but he knew how that would work out. So he just let the boy split ways, he was shoving his things in suitcases. Hyunjin watching it pure defeat.

His body wanted to give out. He hurt the person he loves the most. He ruined everything, like he always did. He ruined his chances with someone who clearly loved and cared for him.

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