Temptation

Chapter 67 - it's not easy

"What's your idea of a happy life?" He tries to make conversation with me while trying to change the depressing topic.

"Umm probably being married, I don't know but at the rate that my life is going Kinda seems unlikely. Living in peace isn't exactly in the job description, My parents had enemies and look what happened, me and Mateo grew up parentless and alone. Kids aren't exactly in my future, I'm not good with them and I don't fucking change diapers. What about you? What is your idea of a happy life?"

"Get married, have kids, and have a successful business. That's the only thing I want from my mom, she wasn't always there for me and Chelsea, what made it even worse was after my brother died. My dad was always an asshole but he always wanted a daughter, so my sister is the golden child. I'm the lost cause, especially when my parents sent me to rehab."

"So that's what you meant when you said I was just like you. Look you may get on my nerves easily, but you're doing fine. You should have told me what you were doing before."

"I honestly didn't know what you looked like until people were starting to warn me about you. I know you still wouldn't have done it if I just simply asked you."

"That's because I was angry at the fact that I was going to get back together with Marcus until you showed up."

"The real question is are you glad that I showed up in your life." He tries sweet sweet-talk me.

"I'm done with this conversation." I look away from him and I start to take off my jewelry so I can sleep comfortably.

"Be honest, do even think there's a slight chance of us being together?" It takes me a while to answer him, I put my hands on my hips and tell him what I really think about his question.

"No..... I thought we already made it clear that you weren't supposed to fall in love with me. I don't blame you, I just don't want to see you get hurt in the end. You're a good guy, Xavier, even though you make some shitty choices."

"Is this about the time I blew up your car or when during class when I spilled acid on your skirt, I said I was sorry."

"Well, that too, two reckless people in a relationship isn't exactly safe. Marcus has his stupid moments but he tends to use his head more than you do, no offense. Aren't you like 23?"

"Uh some offense taken, yeah I am, I'm not like this usually but I gotta fit in somehow. You know act stupid, a bit clueless, and get into several fights. Give it time, you'll see what I'm really like outside."

"Your lucky that you met me a little after I turned 18, You would have caught a case which is funny because you work with the law."

"Well it must have been fate, I'll let you sleep, we have an important day tomorrow." He waves goodbye.

"What are you talking about?" He looks back at me once his hand is on my door knob.

"We're having dinner with my family, my dad is going to be there. He wants to meet you, mostly so he can dig up dirt, trying to finally meet the girl that he most hates."

"Add him to the list of people that hate me, Trust me that list never ends. What the hell did I do to him?"

"Some weird shit that went on between your uncle and him, I don't know what his problem with you is, we'll find out soon enough. Anyways goodnight." He winks at me and leaves, I belly flop on my bed and groan, god my is my life so complicated? I know I've wronged many people, maybe I've killed their relatives, ruined their lives, you know the basics. But shit, this obsession is on a whole other level.

The next day.....

The one thing I like about having class in Poison 101 is that you never know what to expect from him, Surprisingly I do learn from him, we all know to never mess around in his class unless we all want to end up in the infirmary.  He walks around the class as we're hearing his lecture about holding someone for ransom.

"Esmerelda, let's say you trying to get rid of a particular person, They are well known, and in that situation, you cannot use any type of weapon because it will leave marks on the corpse. Can you tell me at least one type of poison that will leave traces?" He standards over my shoulder.

"Oleander," I say confidently, he nods his head in response and walks to the front of the class, and looks at everyone.

"Students Don't be stupid, do your research,  because if you happen to take the life of one wrong person. Your whole plan will either end up blowing up in your face and you'll have to live with the consequences for the rest of your life or you can die and suffer miserably in hell. You choose your fate, now get the hell out of my class you future destructors of America."

As I'm putting my stuff back into my purse I notice that everyone is gone except for me and one other person.

"You've been quiet the entire day, what's on your mind firecracker?" Xavier gives me a confident smile, I take a deep breath as we both walk out of the classroom.

"I stayed up all night doing work, I'm tired. Don't worry I should be fine to go to dinner later-"

"Really? Because the dark circles under your eyes say otherwise, you don't have to go you know."

"Sleep is unimportant right now, We have to get married as soon as possible so I can divorce you a lot faster."

"Ouch, for your information I would be a great husband."

"If you say so, although I do want to meet this man who is apparently very disturbed by a significantly younger woman. I'm going to give you a heads up, I will not be disrespected by him Xavier, I'll let it slide twice but if there is a third time, I will not hold back."

"You'll be lucky to even survive 10 minutes in there, I'll make sure to cover Chelsea's ears in case you two decide to get a bit nasty."

"I will bite my tongue as long as I can but no promises, get out so I can change." I point at the door.

"What if I wanna stay?" He smirks

"Get out," I say with a stern voice and he leaves.

"Be ready by seven! I'll kick down your door if you're late."

"And you'll be the one putting it back on, dickhead!" I rub my eyes frantically and start doing my hair, I turn on my curling iron and as I start curling my hair, my eyes start to close. I immediately wake up and the curling iron burns my neck, I instantly drop it without thinking and it lands on the side of my hand

I whine in pain and curse out loud then look at the mirror to see the damage, shit that looks disgusting. I check to see if the hallway is clear of depressing and horny teenagers, I run to the girl's bathroom and start to clean the wounds with water, my eyes are filled with tears from the pain.

"Oh my god, what am I gonna do?" I start to panic and lean on the sink trying to gather my thoughts, I don't usually cry from pain, am I just tired of the emotional pain that I'm in?

I can feel a panic attack coming on, why the fuck is this hitting me right now, I go to my room and can already see Xavier in front of my door. I open my door extremely fast before he can say anything to me yet, I start to rummage through my drawers if prescribed pills.

"Get out of here Xavier!" I open up the pill bottle filled with Xanax and pop one in my mouth and I can see the worry on his face.

"I think I'm fine, Um what happened to you?" He sees the wound on my neck and puts my hair off to the side.

"That's a nasty hickey, did Marcus do that?" His facial expression is in disgust, I push him off of me and he chuckles.

"Fuck no, I burned myself." I hold out my hand to show him and see my eyes are red.

"Are you crying?" I wipe my eyes and try to not look him in, I get up and start looking through my clothes.

"Esmerelda calm down! It's okay." He pulls me into his arms while I start sobbing, I hate myself so much right now and I don't know why. He doesn't say anything and holds me tight.

"I know this going to sound weird but have you gotten your period recently?" I look at him dead in the eyes and get up away from him, then it starts to all make sense to me.

"I CAN'T BE PREGNANT! I can't be fucking pregnant because I can't have kids." I say the last part quietly, I can see the horror on his face. I fall to my knees and I start crying uncontrollably.