"For your information, I actually do care a lot you idiot ..."
"Can you spot how many fucks I give?"
"We were never meant to be together..."
"After everything I did for you, this how you repay me?...."
Growing up too fast has always been an issue for kids these days, never got to color a single coloring book or been to a single playground. I don't blame my parents for not wanting me to play outside in public or socialize with other kids. They were worried for my safety, The world is a cruel and fucked up place where kids have to grow too fast and not enjoy their childhood, I remember the times when I wished to be a grown-up.
Looks like I got what I asked for, who knew one day a chance of a happy life could be turned into hell. Theres a few situations where I have a "I need my mom" moment, don't get me wrong I love my uncle and Jayden to death but some things are better talking to your mom. That's when I realized that I'm not ready to get married, doesn't matter if it's real or not, I'm horrified.
It's not like I have a choice, sometimes in life we get forced to do things that we don't want to do. I'm hoping Marcus doesn't show up to the wedding because I'm afraid I won't keep myself from running away at the altar and into his arms.
It's Friday I haven't seen Marcus all day, I don't want to see the heartbreak appear on his face once the announcement is made. As I'm getting ready saya and Maria come and their eyes go wide as if they've seen a ghost.
Her dress
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"What? Do I have something on my face?" I question as I look in the mirror.
"No, you look beautiful, don't worry. Before you know it, it'll be all over and you can be with Marcus in peace." Maria says.
"You're a good person for doing this, not many would. Despite how much of an idiotic sociopath Xavier is, we all know he has a good heart, he's sure as hell not Marcus but comes close 5th I think." We all laugh while we do a group hug.
As another knock on the door happens, all I hope is that it's Marcus..... but it's not.
"You ready?" Xavier says while leaning on the side of the door. I look back at the girls and see the sadness on their faces, Saya tries to put on a smile but Maria on the other hand can't force herself to give a sympathetic smile.
"Yeah." I nod to him and he holds out for me to grab, I grab his hand nervously and he walks me out the door. As we're on the way out, I notice Marcus with his headphones on. Once he sees me we make eye contact and I mouth the words "I love you" to him and watch him slowly disappear.
I hate this so much, I really do hope in the end this is all worth it. He opens the car door to the limo and I sit as far away from him as possible.
"Please talk to me Esme, I can't keep doing this shit. I'm sorry, I need you to talk to me. I need to hear you rant about whatever is going on in your life, I want to hear you laugh-"
"You have got to be kidding me, it's a lot easier to go along with everything, I'm so done arguing with you so if you don't mind I'd like to keep this conversation short."
