Chapter 32 - Horror movie

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Silence filled up the room which made it really awkward, I want to be with him but I don't know if I should. Cruse me for having a heart, even though it's so fucking small.

"You want me to be honest Marcus?"

"Of course. That's all I would ever want." He takes my hand into his.

"I fucking love you Marcus, I'm not gonna deny it. I'd be real stupid to say that but I am afraid of attaching myself to you, everyone I know who I gets close to me, dies. I would die if I was the cause of your death, my life isn't simple. You've seen the shit that happens with one small mistake, everyday is just a constant reminder of how shitty my life is. I'm not sure If I'm able to give you everything you need."

I caress his cheek and I see him tearing up. He takes my hand and kisses my tatted up hand.

"I want you forever even when we're not together. I need you by my side Esmerelda, I want this to last, I thought I only liked drugs, I'm surprised too. I don't need fucking drugs or alcohol to know that my feelings for you will never change."

"What if you end up hating me one day?"

"Not a chance, I know what I got myself into when I started having feelings for you, I don't care if you can't give me everything I want. Just being with you is all I want, you took a chance on me when nobody else did. It feels fucking amazing to know that you have my back especially when this world is filled with so many fucked up people."

I take my crown off and throw it on the bed, it doesn't feel right. I walk towards to Marcus and kiss him with such passion I feel like my heart is gonna explode. He sinks his teeth into my lips and it causes me to softly moan. I run my manicured hands through his brown curly hair and slightly tug on it.

"Not now, my uncle is right across the hall, I promise later."

He chuckles and gives me one last kiss. I bite my lower bit and laugh. I go downstairs to talk to a few of my relatives.

I'm not really close with some of them, they think that I should I got married when I was 15 because that's just the way of life. That I should have given my power to my future husband, how pathetic. I like being in charge, that's one of the reasons why I never stopped fighting for my position.

Besides who the hell doesn't like power? Power makes people talk, yes i know it makes me sound like a bitch and a lunatic but who the hell cares. Some people are a bunch of pussies, they are too afraid to say anything to my face because they know they will die.

"Are you and Marcus back together? cause I was just talking to saya and I heard all of that lovey dovey talk, How adorable."

"Never ever talk about that again maria, or the only thing you will be taking out of your ass is your red louie Vuitton heel."

"Okay, okay, your scary. Have you found out anything about your parents?"

"Yeah im gonna go check a place out, I was hoping you would go with me?"

"Yeah of course prima, I'm surprised you didn't ask Marcus."

"He's busy with the comic book store with Billy and I didn't exactly tell him because of that. I don't want him always wrapped up in my life, he deserves to have his freedom."

"Wow respect, how've you been mentally?"

"I think I'm doing okay, the doctors have reduced my prescription with every medication I'm taking. I think it's the fact that I'm accepting that I'm sick is helping me."

"That's good, I know it may not always seem like it but I'm proud of you, I've seen you on your worst days and you've gotten happier which is amazing. How do you do it."

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