"For your information, I actually do care a lot you idiot ..."
"Can you spot how many fucks I give?"
"We were never meant to be together..."
"After everything I did for you, this how you repay me?...."
Saya, Maria, and I get ready in my room, took a pregame shot, and make the boys carry the alcohol to the graveyard. Lin doesn't care because I have to cut him in on the alcohol.
Word kinda got out on our small get-together so I have a truck coming in with alcohol, I have a few of my boys making a bit of deals, oh come on don't judge me. Teenagers may become addicts but sometimes they make the best customers, it's just business nothing personal.
I've decided nobody makeup for tonight, I've been off my pills for two weeks and no one has noticed. Is that a good thing?
The reason why I agreed to this party is that tomorrow is my parent's death anniversary, I usually go to the cemetery where they were buried with Jayden and my uncle, you know lay some flowers but this time it feels different. It may have been thirteen years, though it never gets easier. My brother called me asking me if he can go with us tomorrow to finally see where our parents are buried, it feels weird saying "our"
I know you may be thinking what the hell happened to Chester? The motherfucker was planning to make a run to Mexico and he did, he could of at least been smart and move to Canada, I've got my people looking for him. My dumbass took too long and now he's escaped, god I hate myself for that.
I was waiting for the time so me and Marcus can kill him ourselves, he knew I was on his ass but doesn't know what I look like. I guess I still have the upper hand, and you maybe wondering about that kid Sebastian.
Well we are still trying to find out more about him, I finally gave in to realize that he does kinda look like me and a lot like my brother, he may or not be related to me. That's what you get when trying to hack into a mafia family's system.
I know have been holding off on everything, there's only so much shit I can get into but I didn't forget anything. This is my future self talking, by the way, prepare to watch all this shit blow up in my face.
"C'mon ladies it's time to party!" I hold up a glass of champagne and drink all of it, they squeal in excitement.
Her outfit...
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As we're making our way to the graveyard, we open the door and we hear loud cheering once we enter the place. Marcus hands me a beer and we all start dancing, a cigarette in one hand and a beer in the other. I see in one corner the preps snorting a few lines with their credit cards while on the other side, I see the Soto vatos rolling up and smoking a few joints.
While everyone is having the time of their lives a see a certain someone away from everyone else in a deep state of mind. I approach Xavier and he takes a hard swig of the vodka in his cup. He stands against the wall with one leg up.
"You don't dance huh?" I joke around but he doesn't look at me.
"Sorry, what?" He snaps out of the trance he was in, he rubs his eyes, and starts to bite his lip.
"What's-" Before I can finish my sentence he cuts me off and walks away from me in panic.
I follow him to his room. I see him standing over the sink, pouring water on his face, he takes deep breaths while staring at himself in the mirror then he takes off his shirt
"Go back to the graveyard Esmerelda, I'm fine." He snaps at me.
"No! Would you at least fucking look at me and tell me what's wrong!"He looks at me with tears filled up in his eyes.
"I'm a mess, I'm a fucking mess!" He slams his fist against the sink causing me to startle a bit. I stand there in shock not being able to say a word, I know there are no right words in the world that I can say to him and I grab his hand and sit him down on his bed while I go lock his door.
he cries into my arms, his cries are truly heartbreaking which causes me to shed a tear. Once he calms down a bit he starts to talk again with a rasp in his voice.
"Molly was there for me when no one ever cared for me, I thought I was strong enough to pull through but I can't fucking do it. For god's sake, I'm a drug addict! Please go back upstairs, I don't wanna ruin your night."
He's terrified cause he doesn't wanna die, and the tears start to come down his rosy cheeks again. He wishes that he can take it all back but now I hope he realized that he just went to heaven and back.
I sit down on my knees and cup his cheeks with both hands so he can look me in the eyes, he's embarrassed and broken.
"I've been living off of drugs my whole life, I even fell in love with the medicine I was on, as much as I hate you for what you did but you stuck with me right now. Molly and whatever other drug you were taking left you to die. They need you to spread their poison, you don't need them."
He doesn't say anything back, he lays back in his arms and slowly drifts asleep. I notice his neck tattoo and caress it, fuck I shouldn't be doing this. This is all my fault I shouldn't have brought drugs, I've never seen him like this before
The next day.....
I wake up and immediately realize I'm not in my room, I notice that I'm still in my clothes from last night. An arm is wrapped around me, I look down under the covers and notice a guy's wrist has a few bracelets, Marcus doesn't wear bracelets. I turn my head to see Andrew. I forgot about what happened last night, I'm so hungover right now I can't even get up.
I'm already going to get shit on by these teachers the next day because I say fuck those classes, I have too much on my mind to sit there and learn about fucking cyanide or how to get rid of a body. I don't give a shit what these teachers think, they are old and are probably waiting for god to take their life.
"I shouldn't have dragged you into my problems last night, it's not a part of the contract so I'm sorry you had to deal with that." He sits up while he rakes his hand through his hair.
"I don't care about the stupid contract, I wasn't going to leave you like that." I give him some ibuprofen and water for the hangover he has.
"Umm, Do you wanna go with me to the cemetery to go visit my parents? I would ask Marcus to go with me but my uncle isn't exactly a fan of him right now."
"He doesn't either, are you sure that's a good idea?"
"It's not the worst idea, it's one way to announce our "dating" to my family. So are you?" I give him a little smile and he gives in.
"Alright." I go back to my room to change and wait for Maria and Jayden in front of the school, my uncle sent a car to pick us up.
