Intertwined..

Tangled By Fate Or.. Heart.. ?

Way too long.. Bear with it.. :)

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she walked slowly... Looking around...

She stopped for a few seconds to reflect in what she was doing ... Then again walked slowly.. Waiting at the intersection to cross the road.. She looked like a mess..

She ended up walking all the way to her flat... He hadn't called her back..

She couldn't go inside.. She stood just outside while hoping that he would turn up..

If this is over... She knew she wouldn't even get a single day with him.. He won't allow it... Neither will she ever see him smile at her.. Never ever he would look back at her...

For the past few weeks each time she had dismissed him it has been for her own peace.. She hadn't given a single thought that while she wanted to get out of this, as much as hard it was for her, probably it was that much  harder for him, or a little more.. Cause he was trying to stay...

If she had any doubts how he felt, today that few seconds, she got a glimpse of his face had told her...

He had seen her... She was done for the day but, just to avoid him she had outrightly denied him.. Even when he had tried to pretend that he was cool, she had known that this was like a punch to his guts...

She felt more depressed... Why she had to do it... She pulled her phone again and dialed.. He did not pick.. She dialed again... Ready to blast at him.. Fuming.. For messing with her..

But as the call kept ringing she mellowed down.. Just hoping to ask him to let her find him.. She would listen, she would talk, she would stay.. Only if he would let her see him..

A fresh set of tears flew at the thought of how he must have felt, each time she didn't respond.. Or each time she had denied him.. Or each time she just left him to hang onto her on his own..

He sat there... Silently... He had checked if he could reschedule the returning flight which was on Monday.. But he couldn't bring himself to.. How could he? He had been really looking forward to see her...

At that moment he felt the proverb "what goes around comes around.." he had kept her at a distance... not just the initial days but on those days where he was aware of his own feelings... Now it's just a few weeks and he's unable to resist it..

The last wednesday he had seen her in one of the friend's post she wore a black off shoulder long gown with a slit at the right, it was blur group picture where she was laughing at something.. How insanely jealous he had been.. The gorgeous woman belonged to him yet except him every damn person was allowed to reach for her except him..

He wanted a picture... In that same dress, where he would lean into her ear and speak something to make her laugh..

There was a difference when you knew how to admire a beautifully dressed woman vs when you wanted that beautiful woman only for yourself..

What he would need to do to show her that his heart will not even beat that loud for any other.. It won't even make half the effort for any other.. It had accepted her by leaps and bounds because it was her.. No other..

He would pay anything to get back to those days where she ran towards him at a surprise visit... She sat in front of him for a dinner date gushing about the ambiance, sheepishly asking if it's okay to order prawn since she knew he didn't like it that much... Or picked a place and randomly dragged him there because she had seen other couples visiting..

He would need to talk to her.. Even if she didn't feel like earlier, they both would need clarity.. More like.... A closure.. The thought only made him feel like he was half dead...