On His Roster (Aviación #1) Completed

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First meet

You will struggle greatly to balance time for other activities, particularly with the kind of job we do. Our work demands so much of us that we find ourselves having to give up time for other interests. Two weeks earlier, Deuce and I had not seen each other. If you don't try to make time for each other in your relationship, it's not very easy to maintain. It truly takes effort to give someone the impression that they are significant or to set aside time for them alone.

The fact is that one day we are going to work together and I will be unable to stop it. He's there and I can never get away again. Perhaps all I've done is lose the drive to make an effort to stick with him instead of truly running away from him. Ever since coming to Dubai, we have never discussed what transpired in Italy. It's possible that this could have been prevented and that an amazing connection may have developed before my confused self ruined everything. Perhaps I am  at fault as well.

"I'm sorry," natigil ako sa ginagawa nang biglang may nagsalita mula sa aking likod. Binaba ko ang hawak na papeles sa lamesa at hinarap siya.

Kakauwi lang namin sa mahabang oras na byahe at tinatapos lang ang ibang post-flight responsibilities bago tuluyan na makalabas ng airport.

Of course, he's still wearing his work clothes now. I didn't even leave the hotel during the layover, and we didn't chat for the entire journey. I'm glad I'm alone since I won't have to go on trips with my colleagues.

"I apologize for what transpired in Italy. I acknowledge that I went too far and that what I did to you wasn't right. I know that i crossed some boundaries and I shouldn't have done that to you. I accept responsibility for it all, as it was entirely my fault." Deuce said it all with remorse in his eyes.

"I apologize for all that transpired and for hurting you. It was my mistake for assuming that you found it enjoyable. I swear I won't do that to you ever again, and if you ever catch me stepping over the line, I'd prefer you snapping at me rather than being silent, Av." inabot niya ang aking kamay at mahigpit na hinawakan iyon.

Nasa office pa kaming dalawa at maraming makakakita o makakarinig sa usapan at ayaw ko nun.

"Let's not talk about it here. This is not the right place for that,"

"Of course...we'll talk outside if you want," he nodded obediently and pulled me out of the office, walking diligently while i tail behind him. "I tried to reach you but you're not answering me back." patuloy niya. "We're you sick the past few weeks? I was worried about you and i called Nathan to ask how you've been but that asshole is pretty useless."

Pinagbuksan niya ako ng pintuan ng kaniyang kotse kaya wala akong nagawa at pumasok na roon para matapos na ang usapan na ito.

"Just dont push me away, please, Av." he said as soon as he's seated on the driver seat. "Let me be in your space and don't force me out."

Nanatili ang mga mata ko sa kaniya at seryosong nakinig sa bawat salita. "We're in the same friend group, Deuce. How can i even do that? Even if i wanted to I couldn't."

He swallowed a lump in his throat. "I am sorry for losing my shit that night it's just that sometimes i am not in control of what i feel. The exact reason why i am obsessed of always being in control and i try to be mindful of everything that i do because i also hate the person i am turning into when i am batshit crazy, Av."

"I hate having moments of being the person that I don't like. I am human and i also have moments and episodes of being a worst asshole possible—"