On His Roster (Aviación #1) Completed

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Family

Nang nalaman ni Angelo na uuwi ako ay agad siyang nag book para samahan ako. Malinaw na sa aming dalawa na wala talagang mangyayari at mabubuong relasyon.

Marami nang nangyari at kung noon siguro baka may pag asa pa kasi totoo naman na gusto ko siya dati pero sa dami na ng pinagdaanan namin ni Deuce ngayon ay parang hindi ko na magawang balikan pa ang buhay sa pilipinas noon.

Ang importante ngayon ay malinaw na at okay na kaming dalawa ni Angelo. Hinayaan ko siyang sumama pauwi kasi wala rin naman akong magagawa sa buhay at desisyon niya at matanda na siya alam niya na ang dapat na gawin.

Gusto ko lang muna na magpahinga saglit. Sabi naman ni Angelo mas magandang sa mga resort ako tutuloy para sulit din ang paghohotel ko at may magandang tanawin kesa naman mananatili ako sa siyudad.

Kaya iyon ang ginawa ko. Sinubukan kong makausap sila mama o kahit ang kapatid ko pero parang iba na nga yata ang kanilang mga number.

Sinamahan ako ni Angelo sa Boracay pero dahil nga ay may pamilya rin naman siya ay agad ding siyang bumalik ng manila pagkatapos ng dalawang araw.

Nalaman niya rin ang tungkol sa aking pamilya kaya naman ay kinuha niya ang address ng aming bahay para siya na ang pupunta roon at kakausap sa kapatid ko.

Plano ko sana na makasama sila kahit kakain lang kami sa labas, kami nila mama. Kakausapin daw ni Angelo at magtatanong siya kung pwede ba silang imbitahan.

Iyon din ang hinihintay ko ang malaman kung ano ba talaga ang nangyari at bakit bigla nila akong hindi na kinakausap.

I went to Station One with a book in hand. There was some people there, especially in the shade, and I saw some people sleeping and sunbathing. I put my beach towel down on the sand so I could relax and begin reading.

An hour later, a local approached me and offered to sell me a coconut drink. I picked the entire coconut and asked him to open it so I could drink it more easily.

I discovered that there are a couple of notes at the end of the book I'm reading. I forgot i did brought these letters from Deuce with me when I left Dubai.

You are now freed from your past. I will always love your hand. Your fingers, I love them, so now they're mine. Follow your dreams with me?

Love,
The man who will forever kneel behind you

I put the book down and lifted up the little notes, looking at his penmanship makes me smile.

You are destined to do all the best things, don't doubt yourself and try everything you want to do.

I made the perfect decision to give us both a break, and this is also the appropriate move. He's had his own problems to deal with, and now it's my turn to feel better.

Will my love for him lessen because I am aware of his struggles and numerous flaws and mistakes? I doubt it. However, should I simply let things play out and give him a free pass?

No, there are consequences for every choice we make. What I want to see today are changes—his and ours—and that these changes are for the better.

I lost the baby, but it doesn't mean I should give up on my dreams  or allow tragedy to ruin my life. I still have a lot on my plate and want to fulfill all of my goals. In addition to becoming successful in my chosen field of work, my personal goals include saving money and possibly owning a piece of land. I want a fulfilling career and my own house.