On His Roster (Aviación #1) Completed

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I reasoned that maybe he wasn't in the best shape when he said it, or that maybe the next day, I could convince him to see my side, but no. I thought that there was still hope for us. Deuce has a cold, uninteresting feeling. We entered the cabin and were immediately struck by how quiet it was. Deuce feels distant and indifferent.

He slept on his side of the bed and didn't give a damn if I could sleep or not. Before going to bed, we would talk about random topics. He wouldn't go to sleep without me by his side and would wait for me to come out of the bathroom after I finished my nightly ritual. But now that he's asleep on the bed and hasn't waited for me, I'm heartbroken.

I have no idea what he went through when we were searching for him during those hours that he went missing.  How far he would go to fight the deep sea and the waves in order to live. When we spotted him, he was encircling the young girl in his arms. Did he have to stay afloat for them, and did he truly struggle to save the drowning girl?

It's obviously wrecked his birthday. We came here to celebrate him, but notice what happened instead.

We don't say anything till the plane takes off again for Dubai. To him, I seem to be an invisible ghost that he cannot see. It seems like a waste of time to interact with me and pay me attention during the day. Like his time is so expensive and i cant afford it.

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The silence in the upcoming days and weeks is dreadful.  My friends carry on with their lives as if the Maldives never happened, and I am left here alone in the terrible silence that follows. I never heard from him, and he never spoke to me. It's like everyone has already moved on while i am here left alone, still on this page.

Does separation feel like this? total silence?  Waking up early to get ready for work and returning home for a rest is a never-ending routine. Since my friends are preoccupied with their own life, I'm left alone in this place, stuck in silence.

I'll admit that I still weep every night when I attempt to go to sleep or if I have a day off from work and nothing better to do. As a result, I spend my days rotting in my apartment, crying uncontrollably until I find out that I fell asleep and woke up feeling depressed.

I've been staring at my phone like there would be a miracle and I'll get a message from him, but weeks have passed and still nothing.

We are never rostered together. I had hoped to work out a schedule with him, but these past few weeks, for whatever reason, I haven't been rostered with him.

Though he advised ending our relationship and cutting off communication, I've been itching to visit his place as of lately. It's the third week of February, and I really want to see him. He's someone I miss and I want to talk to.

I've still had his apartment key, staring at the key that is currently on the table, I appear to be an insane person. Now that we're apart, I'm wondering if I can still go there without worrying about upsetting him or if it's okay even though we're no longer fucking together.

I never thought I would feel this way, even though I missed him so much. I'm not prepared for it because it seems like a big change. He has stopped sending texts and making brief phone calls to provide updates on his layovers.

I'm still confused by his choice to end our relationship in this way. I want to speak with him and give my side of the story, but how can I do that when he hasn't been around for several weeks? I asked Nathan about him but my friends were unaware of him and his whereabouts, and he was also unsure of the current situation in Deuce's life.

Are these symptoms signs of a withdrawal? When you quit using a substance or behavior that you are addicted to, you could suffer withdrawal symptoms. And my symptoms were intense crying and depression, maddening ideas and delusions.