On His Roster (Aviación #1) Completed

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I declined Dinara's invitation to go out this time. For today's layover, the crew is planning a party, but I'd prefer to relax in my hotel room. Okay naman sa akin na kumain ng dinner mag isa. Wala rin ako sa mood na pumarty ngayon. Naisipan ko rin na itigil na muna ang pagpaparty at baka di na ako abutin ng ilang taon dahil sa alak.

At tsaka naroon din si Barry na panay text sa akin nag aaya na lumabas eh ayoko nga. Hindi ko nga nirereplayan pero sige pa rin ng sige. Hindi ko naman nalimutan ang kwento ng kaibigan ko tungkol sa mga trip niya s abuhay.

O siguro ayaw ko nang makasalamuha ng ibang lalake ngayon kasi natuto na ako. Na ayaw kong gawin ang mga bagay na ayaw ni Deuce gaya naalng ng pagkakaroon ng ibang lalake maliban sa kaniya. Umiiwas na ako sa mga lalake ngayon kasi takot na baka magalit si Deuce.

Natawa ako habang iniisip ang rason kung bakit ako umiiwas sa mga lalake ngayon. At talaga ba ba nagbabahong buhay ako kung kailan wala namang pake sa akin si Deuce.

Hindi na nga nagpapakita eh magseselos pa kaya? So para saan tong pag iingat ko ngayon? Bakit ko pa iiwasan ang mga lalakeng may gusto sa akin?

Pero baka naman kaya umiiwas ako kasi hindi ko naman gusto si Barry at tsaka ang tanda niya na ah may chismis pa na may asawa na at maraming kabet.

Talaga bang wala na akong gusto sa mga lalake ngayon? Hindi na ako naattract o sadyang walang makakapantay kay Deuce kaya hirap akong maghanap ng bago.

Ganoon ba ka galing si Deuce para hirap makalimutan at tapatan? O baka naman nagpapaka loyal nga ako para sa taong wala namang pake sa akin ni hindi ko nga karelasyon.

I slipped on my white slip-on slippers and put on my blue silk pajamas after finishing my bathroom practices.  I'm going out for dinner to observe other people and their point of view.  I'm sick of being confined to this space with four walls.

Watching the locals lived their lives is a great way to learn about other peoples cutltures and traditions. I walked to the hotel's restaurant and chose a table beside the glass wall. The streets are crowded even though it is dark outside.

Jazz music is playing in the restaurant backdrop. Now that it's a little later, there are fewer people here, which I appreciated because it's more serene.

I started eating as soon as my dinner arrived and had a small glass of wine. I felt that this was a unique occasion and that I was experiencing peace and quiet for the first time, therefore I really valued this calm period.

I spoke with my sibling over a video call for a little while. I spent my time snapping pictures of the outdoors scenery and sending them via Messenger.

I noticed that there were numerous unread messages from people in the Philippines when I accessed my messenger. Some people are inquiring about how I'm doing, and some of my relatives are being unpleasant to me since I didn't give them the money they wanted to borrow.

Some of my less than friendly acquaintance have occasionally bullied me during highschool are inquiring about my employment and how I moved overseas.

I snapped a picture of what was in front of me and initially shared it on Instagram. Here's a brief recap of my day.

I continued checking what was in my messenger and stopped scrolling when I received a notification on Instagram. It is a message from Carmina, a friend in the Philippines. I didn't even know that she followed me on Instagram.

Hindi naman kami masyadong close talaga dalawa. Akala ko nga dati masyado akong mababa para i follow ako ni Carmina sa instagram. Siya nga pala yung bestfriend ni Angelo na dati ay naging crush ko. Pinagselosan niya pa ng ako eh siguro crush niya rin bestfriend niya. Dati pa namang sosyal to si Carmina at parang mapag mataas.