On His Roster (Aviación #1) Completed

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A Life

I made my way back to work and was prepared to take on lengthy work schedules in order to make up for my absences. Perhaps this is because my career is the only thing I truly have pride in; I earned it through hard effort and merit.

I truly want to preserve and protect this for as long as I can because I worked so hard for it and waited for about seven months. Despite the fact that my profession is often quite difficult and demanding, I want to love it.

I'm working so enthusiastically right now because I feel so relaxed and in the right perspective of mind. This time, I'm rostered with my friends, which makes work much more enjoyable. As crew members, we completed the pre-flight safety briefings and procedures and then took a seat on the jumpseat for a little rest before we took off.

We are on schedule. then, following the captain's announcement, the service began. No matter how exhausting the work becomes, I adore watching the passengers, especially the kids, who are always so enthusiastic for the trip and sometimes just so glad to watch the cabin crew.

The hatred I'm receiving from my relatives is getting worse the longer I've worked here and resisted going to the Philippines. I wanted to make sure that my money was spent wisely and didn't want to waste my hard work or money just because they asked. Some people back home think that being an OFW automatically makes you wealthy. Working overseas is never simple, and earning money requires perseverance. 

The company I work for offers its employees the opportunity to take a month-long break or a short trip home, along with help with transportation and accommodation costs. However, since I have no family to return home to, I declined. I made the decision to work rather than return to the Philippines. I want to focus more on making extra cash right now rather than going there because I have no idea what to expect.

My family and I got into an argument that escalated to the point where they estimated the amount of money they had spent on me since they adopted me, counting every penny, and even making a list of everything I owned. Up until my graduation, my mom and her family paid for all of my school expenses, including my tuition, allowances, and meals at home. They demand payment from me right now. They all told me that I should not have run away from my debts.

I was forced to tell Deuce about what was happening to me and my family because the fight had gotten so bad that even he was concerned.  I don't want to bring him into my chaos particularly with my family's life in the Philippines.

However, my family learned that I was seeing him, an Italian, and a foreigner. The toxic mindset in the Philippines holds that a Filipino woman dating a foreign man is automatically a sign of money and status advancement.  I feel really ashamed of what my family did, and they even told Deuce that I ran away from home to avoid paying my debts.

I am ashamed because I know that they are not used to this kind of toxic behavior when it comes to money and obligations. They don't think it's right to give up everything for your family or even to assist a relative in taking care of their own responsibilities. 

Nakakahiya na nag aaway dahil sa pera at mas lalong nakakahiya na nandamay pa ng ibang tao na wala namang kinalaman. Ang toxic ng salitang utang na loob at mas lalong nagpapahila ito pababa sa taong gusto lang naman na maka angat sa buhay.

Nanumpa pa sila na bubuntisin lang din daw ako at iiwan tulad ng nangyari sa totoo kong ina na inabandona ako at hinayaan na manirahan sa ibang pamilya. Sabi nila na kung hindi dahil sa kanila ay pupulutin lang daw ako sa kangkungan.
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