On His Roster (Aviación #1) Completed

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Rejections

Nakaramdam ako ng matinding guilt nang matapos akong magsalita at nakita ko ang naging reaction niya. Hindi na gaya kanina na masaya at malumanay ang kaniyang mga mata kung tumitig sa akin. I can feel the little changes on his face and even in the way how he's being attentive to me earlier compares to now.

Hindi niya na pinag tuloy ang usapan kanina at ako naman ay nanatiling tahimik at parang nagsisisi na sa nasabi. I focused my attention on the movie we're all watching instead kahit na hindi ko naiintindihan iyong kwento at kung bakit nagpapatayan na ang mga bida.

What's worse is while we're both silent and not in the mood i am reeking of his scent, the perfume that he gifted me. Mas lalong sumikip ang dibdib ko habang iniisip kung ano ba ang naging mali.

Did he asked me that question because he wanted to know if i am in love with him? If i love him? And did i just rejected him unconsciously? Kaya ba biglang may nag iba? Kaya ba bigla siyang umurong at di na nagsalita pa?

I straight up told him that love isn't on my mind at least for now. At isa pa hindi naman talaga ako naghahanap ng pag ibig. I am not active on dating scenes. Sa totoo lang ang nasa isipan ko at ang priority ko palagi ngayon ay ang magka pera at maging maayos sa trabaho. Maging masaya at gusto ko sanang enjoying ang buhay ko ngayon.

Ilang minuto nalang ay magtetwelve na. Aakyat na muna sana ako sa taas at kukunin ko lang ang aking bag na nasa kwarto pero nang nadaanan ko ang entertainment area malapit sa bar ay dinig na dinig ko ang malakas na tawanan nila Malik.

Naroon pala sila at naglalaro ng beer pong. Maraming red cups na nakalatag sa lamesa at sakto naman nang pag lapit ko ay lumalaklak na naman si Nicco.

"We almost forgot that we are your friends for a quick second," hiyaw ni Nicco at umakbay sa akin para mahila ako papasok ng entertainment area.
Lahat ng mga boys ay narito at naglalaro.
Binigyan naman ako ni Lakshmi ng pulang bola at inanyayahan na maglaro.

"Opps! Before that you gotta drink one shot!" pagpupumilit ni Malik sa akin at wala na rin akong nagawa at nilagok iyong vodka. Everyone cheered and waited for me to position myself on the beer pong table. Palpak ang pagtapon ko kaya napainom na naman ng isa pang shot. Sumunod naman na naglaro si Nicco laban kay Lakshmi.

"Did something happened? What's wrong, Av?" concern na tanong ni Nathan nang tumabi siya sa kung saan ako nakatayo. Kita ko ang saglit na pagtanaw ni Nathan sa living room kung saan tahimik na nakaupo si Deuce.

"Did he do something bad to you?"

Mahina akong natawa at umiling sa kaibigan. Sinandal ko ang likod sa may glass wall tanaw pa rin ang nag eenjoy na sila Malik at Nicco.

"Hervé, i knew him since we're in college and i've met his family in Italy, too. I can say that we're best buddies for a long time now. We lost contact with each other when he moved out of his mother's home and transferred to his father in Nicaragua."

"We're in the same spanish class in the university we became friends when we started to go to some parties and got to hangout there. Eventually i have learned to speak italian since i've lived there for years."

"Why are you suddenly saying this to me?"

Nananantya naman siyang tumitig sa akin at suminghap. "Well i kinda feel like i need to at least explain some things to you since you've met him because of me. I really think that i owe you something,"