I care about what I said to Kevin. Because this time I was honest and serious...
If I break my own words that's just gonna ruin everything. As hard as it is I have to keep my words, I have to respect my decision. My purpose is not to get him... It's being honest about the whole situation and realizing that every time the cycle starts it ends the same way every single time, and unfortunately there is no way to change the cycle unless the both of us change our ways, which I have no idea of how to do that. It doesn't work that way. Either I give my wishes up or he gives his up, and since neither of us is gonna give up our own stance I don't even know what we're doing.
I have to respect my decision because my conscience knows better.
