I remember now. I tried not to love him before. I tried pushing him away, not telling him how I felt, not giving him affection, not expressing my thoughts nor telling him things. And I tried not going out with him and rejected his invitations every time he asked me if I wanted to go out.
I later realized I was hurting him by doing that, so I slowly let him in and did things with him.
But as a result of me keeping things to myself, he kept a lot to himself too. He didn't let me follow him on social media, didn't tell me his feelings or kept his thoughts to himself... and that ended up hurting me too.
