I'm overthinking and can't fall asleep.
What would happen if I tell them the truth?
What if I don't want to stop seeing him despite what they tell me? Or maybe they won't tell me to stop seeing him, maybe they'll disagree at first but then accept it.
I love him and I don't want to stop... I just don't know how to tell them the truth without spilling everything. I don't even know how to start. I should pray to know how to start... I don't know.
I don't want to affect my sister with my personal choices so that's part of why I don't want to tell them. But at the same time I do because I'm tired of hiding how I feel. I just... you know, when he said he wanted to live on his own and that he'd invite me to sleep in the guest room... I thought the same thing with me, even... I even considered the possibility of living with him. Even if it's just as friends I considered that in my mind. I just love him and... I don't know how to tell them that without them taking it wrong. I'm kinda scared of telling them because that would mean admitting it to myself and to everyone.
