Wait a second, it wasn't only a result of me keeping things to myself. It was a result of him knowing that I had feelings for him. He wouldn't tell me anything because of that. And he also didn't want to break my heart so that's another one.
He eventually ended up breaking my heart...
And that's when it hit me that he was with her. And it hit me that it was never gonna happen. And thought "what am I doing here then?"
Back then I didn't know it but I was waiting for him to love me back.
That's why, when my friend asked me if it affected me that he was "engaged" with her, I said "No because I accepted it." Because I used to think he really was at one point.
I think, if I try not to love him again, I'm gonna have the same result. And when he gets over his current ex he's gonna meet somebody else and he'll never look my way. I think... that I don't know what I'm gonna do😅😂.
