I romanticized some memories, but some I didn't.
I stopped romanticizing things the moment I found out that he was seeing someone. One of the last times I saw him before not talking for over a year and a half, we were listening to a song from this singer... Jaden's sister? Can't remember her name. But anyway we were listening to this one song and I remember opening my eyes in the middle of listening and looking at him, laying in the bench, and thinking of how simple that moment was and how many times we've done it before, and how he had his eyes closed and focused. It was like time stopped but I was awake and he was dreaming, like life was going on and I stopped in my tracks and got out of the trance while he was still listening to the music with his headphones, and I thought "maybe this moment is more special to you than it is to me today, but at least you look cute with your eyes closed" .
It was in times like that where I realized how deep he was into me. Not in a romantic way because I know that that's not how he thought of me, but just as a person, like how we built our own little world and he was deep into it and he didn't know how meaningful it was because he was just into it. At least not until we stopped doing all of that and it hit him.
We were younger and honestly there's some moments that I didn't know meant a lot until I look back at them now.
