take my hand //billie eilish//

chapter 58•

river pov:

i felt wetness soak through my shirt, as i looked down to see billie laying on my chest i checked the time and it was 4:45 am "im here baby"

we have been bed rotting since the gender reveal i knew she needed this to just relax in our own bed

with no worries in the world, apart from our wedding

in 2 days.

she cried "just let it out" i spoke softly "i feel so low" she cried "its okay, you can feel like that" i knew to reassure her it was okay to feel low sometimes

otherwise she would think it was stupid and she'd isolate her self, "we can push the wedding back" "no" she said sniffing up

placing her hand on my stomach as she hummed 'my future' before i knew it the room went silent and her light snores picked up

and the room felt normal, it was nice to be home, comfy

she opened up to me, she told me how she felt after months of battling with her for her to do so

i went back to sleep and made sure to hold her close.

billie pov:

it was 10:38am and i went downstairs as my suit had arrived for the wedding, i couldnt let her see of course so i ran outside and put it in the car boot

she never goes in there, i mean shed hid her dress from me so i can hide my suit right?

i sat downstairs and watched tv until i heard her get out of bed, stood at the top of the stairs while i giggled at her messy hair

"dont laugh" she whined "you know im playing" i could tell by the way she looked at me that the light inside me was poking through

and when she reassured me last night i knew it wasnt bad to have bad days but i had to show her that its okay for her to experience them too

the only time shes showed emotion is when we are arguing, which is mostly anger and i dont want her to bottle up her emotions

especially while shes pregnant

with our little girl.

we have a name in mind.

audrey marlow oconnell

i like it, a mix of mine and rivers name, i insisted she had her last name as the middle name, it matched a little to well

river insisted her and the baby had my last name as she was changing hers and the baby would grow up confused about her name, yeah shes a little insane

as she came downstairs she almost slipped and my heart sunk, as i shot up to grab her she sat down "fuck" she said

holding her hand over her heart "are you okay" i said panicking "i kinda forgot how big my stomach was" she giggled "thats not funny"

shes always had humour for the scariest things

maybe shes more than a little insane.

river pov:

"what are you watching" i said as we laid on the sofa cuddling, until shark jumped up

and done something he has never done

he rested his head right on my bump, i looked at billie and felt my eyes pool, she smiled pulling out her phone

taking a photo and posting it on instagram 'my little family' she captioned it, she can be cute when she wanted to be

i knew that tomorrow was going to be stressful for us both and we wont be seeing each other all day

and i wanted this day to last as long as it possibly could but i also wanted tomorrow to come quicker and quicker

im excited to finally be called river o'connell its always been a dream of mine and our little girls name was magical

i dont know how we came up with such a pretty name but i knew that was the one the second we said it

the feeling was right

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DO YALL FORGIVE ME NOW?

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