take my hand //billie eilish//

chapter 49•

billie pov:

she seemed happier, she trusted me again and everything's perfect

i know it seems stupid.

but i have a ring and i want to ask her to marry me, my family support but i havent asked her mom or her dad.

so i head to the stairs and put my shoes on heading towards the door, taking my keys from rivers coat pocket

"where are you going the movie hasnt ended" she whined

"i have something important to do" i said softly walking over to her and planting a kiss on her forehead

it may seem early but i know for certain shes the only girl i want in my life

and placing this ring on her finger really proves that

i head out hopping in my car and driving to the cemetery.

getting out with white roses and the ring taking a deep breath before sitting down

"i wish i could ask you this the proper way, but i want to marry her paul, i know ive hurt her many times but this time ive learnt i cant lose her again, losing her was like losing every inch of my self  i promise to take good care of her, and to help her through her darkest days and to be there when she needs a hand to hold, we will save a seat for you, she misses you the most"

i wipe the tears that escaped my eyes placing the roses down and walking away getting back in my car

and driving to ashleys

feeling the nerves kick in as i went to reach for the handle

just do it.

i pulled the handle down and walked in, she noticed me and ran straight to me hugging me and gesturing for me to sit

"thank you" i smiled

"so im actually here to ask for your blessing" she looked shocked

"i want to marry her, i want to make sure i have her for good i cant let her go not again ever losing her was like losing every inch of me and i cant cope with her not being in my life again"

"you have my blessing, always" she hugged me.

and the hug felt warming, like she knew i would always take care of river for her

ive proved my self to her before so she knows that this is the best thing for us and our relationship

"thank you, but i really should head off and plan how to do this" i giggled "of course let me know how it goes"

i smiled heading out the door, placing my hand over my heart as it beats rapidly

getting in my car and driving to my parents house, finneas and claudia are currently there and this is perfect to plan as i know my family always have the best advice

i hope she says yes, i hope i can see
her walks down the isle towards me and i can lock her in forever

cringe but true, so fucking true i mean have you seen river? who doesnt want her for life

hours passed me and my family spoke about it, im going to take river to our first place we had our date and ask her

tomorrow.

i have nothing to lose apart from her, this seems like a fever dream, the excitement pumped through me like it did the day she became my girlfriend for the first time.

as i arrived back home she was stood at the door with her shoes on and her keys "where are you going" i question walking in as she stood there

"i was going to come looking for you, where did you go" i know shes still on edge a little bit "no where important" i say planting a kiss on her cheek but she wasnt having it

i knew this would cause a fight but i couldnt argue back i would going to marry the girl "you made a promise three days ago and your already being sneaky"

"sit down ri its not like that" "so whats it like then, you know im scared of you leaving again" she walked towards me

i wrapped her in my arms and tackled her into the sofa "trust me please" i whispered in her ear "i promise its nothing bad, this could be the
greatest thing ever" i smiled

i felt her sigh of relief as she reached for my back pocket "no" i say jokingly to play it off cool, she laughed along with me to

"why dont we head somewhere" i knew it was now or never

i texted the family groupchat and told them all to meet me at the rocks

i scrapped the whole plan and decided to do it at a place that meant the most to us

"come on" i say dragging her arm pulling her out the house "your so random" she said wrapping her arms around my waist as we walked to the car

"get in" i say placing a kiss on her forehead, the adrenaline, anxiety, excitement, fear raced through my brain

just do it

after a 15 minute drive we got to the rocks

"sit" i said softly, this was all fucked i dont have a speech i dont know if ill fuck this up or not

as we sat and spoke "i cant wait to see our future" and i knew that was my cue

"river, i lost you once to many times" i got on one knee which isnt like me i dont get on my knees for many people

her face widened "i love you, and when i lost you i thought that must be the end of us but we always find our way back to eachother, when we were 15-16 and we had to split 4 years later you found me and then when i made that dumb decision i lost you, but then i found you again and id the dumbest girl on earth to not ask you this"

i watched as her light green eyes became glossy "will you marry me" she nodded and held out her hand

i couldnt describe how i felt putting that ring on her finger

but wow the money was worth the wait

"i love you" she said jumping into my arms as my family came from hiding behind the rocks

of course my mom with her phone camera in our faces river ran to show claudia her ring and finneas came up to me "so did you rehearse that? or was that made up" "on the spot" i winked

he gave me a hug "make this worth it" he said pulling away "look at her" he said "i knew from the moment use turned 14 this would happen" he smiled

"yeah but i almost lost her over that" i giggled "everything weve been through and here we are in the happiest moment of our lives"

we all smiled as we watched river and claudia speak about the wedding and all that other girly stuff

i was happy

finally happy...

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SO WILL THEY STAY HAPPY?

HEHEHE I HAVE SOMETHING IN MINDDDD