take my hand //billie eilish//

chapter 50•

river pov:

i called my whole family and told them the news its been four weeks and im finally engaged to the the girl i always dreamed of marrying

me and billie have been trying for a baby, it cost us so much and this is the third time

i stood in the bathroom with billies arm around my waist and the needle in her hand "are you sure" she says

i nod laying my head back on her shoulder, ive always had a huge fear of needles but we have seen this way work with so many other women love women couples

the two other times i havent fell pregnant which took a hard toll on me but billie was there to help me up, like she promised

as she stuck the needle in i whimpered "its okay" she said as she pulled it out

she put her hand over the spot as it bled a little and my stomach turned

we stood in the mirror as i stared at my reflection, she didnt let go of me she held me right there

until i kissed her and walked into the living room she sat first and then i sat on her lap while she played with my hair

"so boy or a girl?" i questioned trying to push my awful mindset away to the back of my mind

"ill be happy either way but boy" she smiled as she kissed my neck "girl" i said proudly

"it will have her mammys eyes" she winked at me

i was praying that this time would work otherwise i think id give up, but im praying

we had a family dinner planned to we headed upstairs to get changed

billie picked out her usual baggy outfit and i wanted to make an effort

i pulled out some baggy jeans and a cream oversized t

pulling my top off and looking at my self in the mirror billie came up to me

she kneeled down and kissed my stomach as i smiled pulling my t over my head "i love you" she spoke softly

i know it takes a week to see if im pregnant but i have a good feeling

not thinking twice about anything i pull my jeans up and push billie onto the bed

she looked confused but she was enjoying it

i kissed up from her stomach to her jawline and shes lost so much weight recently her jawline was really sharp

she snaked her arms around my waist pushing me down into her

i kissed her and she kissed me back more dominantly, slipping my tongue in she tried to take over

i pulled her chin away and kissed down her neck, sucking to tease

her back arched and she groaned "dont do that" her horny voice was even sexier than her morning one

feeling the rush take over me i took off her shirt, letting my thoughts take over

the things id do to this women if we had more time is immense

i could tell she wanted to be dominated i like this side of billie she wants me to control her which yes is freaky but its the best kind.

as she began slowly pulling my top over my head she made her way down to my jeans, tracing her finger over my heat

i folded. literally

she pulled me up and unzipped my jeans letting her hand go down, tracing around my thong

and we all know how it goes down...

"oh fuck" i playfully moaned at her before running downstairs

seeing finneas and claudia sat there, so the door really did open...

claudia winked at me and i knew it was her who walked in she stood up and followed me into the kitchen while i redid my hair

"so the sex was good then" i giggled "we could hear use" she began to belly laugh

i smacked her playfully and finished doing my hair, maggie and patrick walked in

thank the lord they werent here too... billie came down the stairs looking fine as always

her red roots shining bright today and her eyes looked more softened than around 5 minutes ago...

we all headed out and i knew i would enjoy tonight

its been a good day

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IT FEELS WRONG WRITING A SMUT IDK WHY HELP ME- WOULD YALL LIKE THE BOOK MORE IF I WROTE THEM?

HOW DO WE FEEL SO FAR...