take my hand //billie eilish//

chapter 57•

river pov:

3 days since i heard from billie, claudia told me she had gone and went to clear her head and that she loved me

but the house has never felt bigger, all alone just me and shark and a huge belly

the gender reveal is today and i wondered if billie was going to show up, i have seen a picture of her and she looked a state

i know she does this, she runs away she thinks im best of without her but i wish i could just tell her its not true

she keeps declining my calls, ignoring my texts even when it involves the little one

of course i was upset but the baby was making me carry on everyday.

everyday was harder knowing billie was away from me, even when we werent talking for a week i still knew she was there

i knew i could see if she was okay

claudia is here helping me and finneas set up, only they know what im having of course they set all the balloons up

wearing all white, i even put a little bow tie on sharks collar

taking a quick photo but i saw a notification, 'b🤍'  my heart warmed to know she was okay

'3 missed calls' i ran upstairs and locked the bedroom door, calling her back but no answer

i sat and called her back until she answered "baby" she spoke, her voice sounding dry, her voice shaky

"im sorry, im sorry i ever ran away, im sorry for putting you in this position i do it all the time but i want to marry you, i want to see you walk down the isle towards me"

"i want to see our baby grow up to be just like their mommy, i want to see my eyes sparkle everytime i look at them" i knew by her voice she was crying

it sounded windy

"but if im not there, it will be easier" "baby come home" i cried down the phone

"i love you and im sorry" "no billie"

i said unlocking the door "billie" i screamed down the phone as finneas put his shoes on it was like he knew

"we need to look for her" i said as the phone went deathly silent

"baby please, stay with me" i knew she was about to do something stupid

and i always knew where she'd do it, i sent finneas and claudia in a complete different direction as i sped there as fast as i could

not to fast though, i couldnt be a hypocrite

i pulled up and i saw her stood there, ready throwing my phone in the backseat and scurrying to get my seatbelt off

slowly approaching her "baby" i seen her chest rise up and slowly decrease

"i cant escape the way i love you, dont leave me please" i begged "look at me" i said slowly walking towards her

"if you think my life was to be better without you your insane, my life is the way it is because of you, you saved me" her head still facing over the ledge

"our child needs you" "i know how much your hurting, but if you take my hand now we can work it out together, and ill help you like i shouldve anyway"

the baby began to kick as i groaned in pain

and she spun around

my knees going weak as she looked at me and back over the ledge, i could tell she was debating it and wether i was in pain or not

i had to grab her,

i ran straight forward and grabbed her hand ragging her down, i would rather her fall and hurt her self then fall and me never see her again

"youll be alright" i said hugging her as she sat on the floor "i cant do this to you any longer" she sobbed "its not you, you make me happier than ive ever been i promise that"

she took her hand in mine and kissed my stomach "im sorry" i hushed her letting her breathe in my arms

before taking her home, "do you still want to do this, we can do it a different day" she stayed silent but i knew to let her think

"i love you more than anything" i kissed the top of her head

the baby was kicking so much, it was like they knew billie was here

holding the top of my bump, billie placed her hand on top of mine, until my phone rang

"finneas calm down ive got her" i heard his sigh of relief "we are coming home"

and we drove home

getting ready and billie decided to still do this

i held her closely to me all night not letting go of her hand the whole night

as the countdown went on, the cannons shot up and it was pink

a little girl

i smiled at billie. as she kissed me

and just like that everything was back but i knew she wasnt

not yet who would be, she just tried to kill her self and yet shes holding up

the strongest girl i know

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DEEPLY APOLOGISE FOR THIS.

I HAD TO ADD A TWIST OKAY?