Vampire Diaries Imagines

Scared to Fail - Tyler Lockwood

She had been sitting on the dock for hours, just looking out at the slow-moving water. I could tell there was something wrong when she bypassed everyone else in the house and went straight out to where she now sat. it was something she would do when she needed time to think and if she couldn't find the answers, she was looking for then she would come to me. But she had been out there longer than normal, and I didn't like what that could have entailed.

"Hey, man." Jeremy greeted me as he walked up beside me. "She still out there?"

I nodded. "Yeah."

"You're worried." When I nodded again, he sighed and stuck his hands in his pockets. "Yeah, so am I."

"She's not normally out there this long," I stated and looked over at him. "An hour, maybe two at the most but never five."

"Maybe she's just out there to get away from the chaos in here." he thought out loud. "But that again, she would usually engage in it too."

"I'm gonna go check on her," I said and headed out to where my sister sat.

As I grew closer, I could hear soft sniffles coming from her and could see her holding something in her hand. At that moment I realized that she hadn't come out here to just think. She was going through so much more but was telling so little. I watched as she sat up straighter when the sound of my footsteps on the wooden dock could be heard and YN was quick to wipe the tears from her eyes. My sister then stuffed whatever she was holding into her hoodie pocket.

When I sat down beside her, I could see just how red her face was from crying and the trails on her cheeks the tears had left. "You've been out here for quite a while. Everyone was starting to get worried."

YNN nodded. "I'm alright."

"No, you're not," I said with a slight shake of my head. "If you were alright, you would have come in after an hour, not still be out here after five." she looked down at her hands and started to fidget with the ring that Jeremy had gifted her for her eighteenth birthday. "Something going on with you and Jer? Do I need to kick his ass?"

My sister shook her head. "No. Well yes, but nothing bad. Nothing like that." she admitted.

I was confused by her answer, so I asked, "If it's nothing bad then what is it?"

YN was silent for a moment, and I could tell she was debating whether or not she really wanted to tell me. Finally, after a minute, she sighed then pulled out a small white stick from her pocket and passed it over to me. On it were two pink lines plain as day. "I'm pregnant, Ty."

It was then I could hear it. She wasn't upset. She was scared.

"When did you find out?" I questioned as I looked back over to her.

"This morning," she confessed and went back to fidgeting with the ring on her finger. "I woke up not feeling well at all, so I went to look in my bag for something to make the nausea go away. I found the pack of tests I bought for a girl in my chem class when she had a scare a month or two ago. And me being me, I started overthinking it and took one of the leftover ones. The entire time I was telling myself that there wasn't any way, and I should have just let it be. Then I saw two lines instead of one and I froze. Didn't know what else to do so I came out here at first to think but then the overthinking kicked back in and here we are."

"With that, I'm going to take it as you haven't told him yet."

YN shook her head. "No. You and Damon are the only ones who know."

"Damon knows?" I questioned in confusion.

"He came to check on me when I didn't come down for breakfast. Said Jer had asked him to since you and him were helping the girls with something. I was just standing there staring at it when he came in." When she finally looked back at me, she was crying again. "He didn't say anything, just took the test out of my hand and held me for a minute. When I asked him not to say anything, that I wanted to be the one to tell you guys, he said he would just tell y'all I wanted to sleep in or something. I came out here shortly after."

"Were you scared of how we were going to react?" I asked and wiped the tears from her face.

"No. Jer and I have talked about what we wanted for the future and yes, a family was a part of that just didn't think it was in the cards sooner rather than later. And I knew telling you wouldn't be a problem since you are typically more understanding than not like mom and dad were."

"Then what has you so scared, YNN?"

"Ty, I'm fresh out of high school. Our parents are gone. His parents are gone. I'm flying blind here. I don't know what I'm doing. I don't have our moms to call when I need advice. I'm scared I'm going to fail my child in more ways than one. We're not ready. I'm not ready." she said, her voice cracking as she explained it all.

I pulled her into me and held her tight. "There's nothing wrong with that. No one is ever really ready for this kind of thing no matter how much they think they are. Our parents might not be here but no one in our lives is going to let you fail. Especially not me. If you \ever need advice, you have Mrs. Liz you can go to. I mean she's taken over the mom role for the lot of us anyway at this point. You're not flying as blind as you think you are. We got you."

"I'm still scared though," YN admitted.

"It's okay to be. Just remember you've got people to lean on." I said and kissed her head.

My sister nodded and her tears stopped. "I guess you're right." There was a comfortable silence that fell between the two of us for a moment before she looked at me. "Thank you."

"You're welcome. Now come on, I'll go with you to tell him." I said as I stood from my seat and helped her to her feet as well.

As we turned around, we saw the Gilbert boy standing right outside the door of the lake house at the top of the hill. "Actually," YN started as she looked up at me. "I want to do it by myself."

"I'll be right here then," I said and watched her make the trek back towards the house.

Jeremy met her halfway down the hill. They talked for a minute before YN showed her boyfriend the positive pregnancy test that she had shown me a few minutes beforehand. I watched as he smiled and picked my sister up off the ground then spun her around.

I was beyond happy for them. Though I know many of us weren't able to get a "normal" happy ending, I was happy that at least YNN and Jer were getting theirs. And as her brother, that's all I could really ask for.