Art of being a Player...

Selfish

"Pwede ka na daw lumabas bukas.."

Hindi ako makatingin kay Cian. Hindi ko alam kung bakit, pero feeling ko ang awkward lang.

"You'll stay with me until tomorrow right?" he asked in a soft voice that made me turn to him.

I opened my mouth to protest but I can't even utter a word when I saw how his eyes are pleading.

"Uhm..d-do you want me too?"

His face suddenly brightens up. He looks like a kid who was able to get his reward.

"Of course!"

I nodded at him then I looked away.

"I'm sorry.." I said.

"For what?" nagtataka nyang tanong.

"I'm the reason why you were beaten." I said in a small voice.

"Look at me Carra.."

I shake my head.

"Carra.."

"No."

"Ouch.." he said.

Bigla akong napatingin sakanya, nakaupo na sya ngayon, and for sure humiga muna sya bago umupo kaya sya nasaktan dahil naipit ang mga pasa nya sa likod.

"Bakit ka umupo!" naiinis kong sabi, napatayo ako at inalalayan syang maka upo ng maayos.

His face is distorted because of the pain that he is feeling, but he still look so handsome.

Seriously Carra?! ngayon mo pa naisip yan?!

"Earth to Carra?" Cian said while grinning.

"H-huh?"

"What are thinking?"

"Nothing.."

"Come here.." he said, then he pulled me towards him and made me sit by his side on the bed.

"Cian!" I said as I tried to move away from him.

"Ouch..Gorge, stop struggling, yung braso ko." sabi nya habang nakatingin sa braso nyang naka cast.

"Ikaw kasi eh!" maktol ko.

"Just stay put, please.."

I sighed.

Alam kong mali pero sinunod ko ang gusto nya. Nakaupo ako patalikod sakanya kaya di ko nakikita ang reaksyon ng mukha nya. Naramdaman ko nalang ang braso nya na walang cast na pumalupot sa bewang ko habang ang ulo nya ay isinubsob sa leeg ko. Bigla akong nanigas, I don't know what to do, I know I should stop him pero hindi ko magawa.

"Cian.."

"Ten minutes, let me hold you for ten minutes.." he whispered.

"Cian.."

"No, kahit five minutes lang..just please let me hold you for awhile.."

"Five minutes..." I whispered back as I tried to stop my tears from falling.

I don't know why pero suddenly i just feel like crying.

"I missed you so much Gorg, I miss you.. I miss holding you like his, I miss US.." he said in a trembling voice.

"T-this is wrong you know.." I sob.

It felt wrong but at the same time it felt so right.