Art of being a Player...

Unexpected Visitor

"Hmnnn.." Naalimpungatan ako nang maramdaman ko ang kamay na humahaplos sa mukha ko. dahan dahan kong binuksan ang mata ko at biglang napaupo ng Makita kung sino ang nasa harap ko.

"C-cian? What are you doing in here?" nanlalaking mata kong sabi. Pero imbes na sagutin ako ay niyakap nya ako ng mahigpit.

"C-cian?"

"Shh..just let me hug you..I know that you are hurting, if you want to cry then here's my shoulder, you can cry as long as you want to lessen the pain in your heart.." he said in a calm voice.

Umiling ako, ayoko nang umiyak. Na iyak ko na ang lahat. Kumawala ako sa yakap nya at tinitigan sya.

"How did you know that I'm here? I'm sure you're the last person that Timothy will reveal my secret place."

He chuckled then he holds my hand and kissed the back of my palm.

"You were the one who told me about your safe haven." He teased.

"I did?" gulat kong tanong.

"Yes, you told me once that you have a safe haven, and you said that if ever we will fight and you will run away..you said that I'll find you here." He said while looking through my eyes.

I swallowed and looked down at our hands.

Yeah.. I now remember.. I was kinda drunk back then and we had a little fight, and after we reconciled I told him about it, hoping that someday he'll come after me if ever I chose to run away from him. That's how much I loved him.

"But you did not chase me back then, you did not come after me..so why now?"

He winced upon hearing what I have said.

"Gorg—"

"I'm sorry I shouldn't have brought up the past.." I said while trying to avoid his gaze. " It's just that I can't understand why this is happening. Do you think something is wrong with me?." I ask while trying so hard to stop myself from crying again.

Akala ko wala na akong maiiyak pa, pero bakit nang maalala ko ang past namin ni Cian, parang gusto kong umiyak lang ng umiyak?

"No don't say that.." he said as he wiped my tears.

"You loved me back then Cian, but you hurt me.. and I know Travis loves me too.. he loves me more than anything else that's why I can't understand how he was able to do it.. I mean if it was you I can understand it.. but we're talking about Travis.. the guy who loves me so much, more than anyone else can." I said while wiping my tears.

"I love you more than he does.. don't underestimate my love for you Carra, I know I've hurt you but I was left with no choice I did it because I thought that it was the right thing to do..but it doesn't mean that I love you lesser than he does---"

"It doesn't matter now who loves me more, the point is I was hurt by the people I loved."

"That's the way it is Gorg, the people you love tend to have the greater power to hurt you. But that doesn't mean that they don't love you."

"What are you doing here Cian?" pag iiba ko ng topic. Napasuklay naman sya ng buhok nya gamit ang kamay nya.

"I just want to be here with you, I am so worried about you."

"I'm fine Cian.."

"No you're not."umiiling nyang sabi.

"If you just saw me when you left me back then, you'll agree with me! I was here for weeks and everyday all I did was to cry.. I can't even think straight that time.. pero ngayon I was even able to listen to music and reflect about things..so you see there's really nothing to worry about."

"Gorg.."

"I just need some time alone."

He sighed.

"Just let me say here with you, I promise I won't disturb you I just want to make sure that you'll be safe." Pangungumbinsi nya perop umiling iling lang ako.

"I will be safe here Cian, I can really take care of myself..this is not the first time that I got a broken heart and ran away from everyone." I said with a straight face.

He opened his mouth as if about to say something but he shut it again.

Silenece enveloped us.

"What's your plan?"

I shrugged.

"I don't know? Maybe I'll just cross the bridge when I get there."