Art of being a Player...

When I was in his shoes...

After one week of hiding I decided to go back home. I needed to go to school, marami na akong namissed na quiz at kailangan kong bumawi. When I got back, I did everything para iwasan si Travis, I even asked Luke and the others to help me avoid Travis. And it's been a month since I came back from subic and I received a text from Travis, saying that he now knows who the father of Gorgette's baby. He is asking to meet me and talk. We decided to meet in my condo.

"Angel!" he said as I opened my door. Niyakap nya kaagad ako ng mahigpit, and I stiffened. Naramdaman nya yata yun kaya humiwalay sya saakin. Tiningnan ko ang hitsura nya. Pumayat sya at nangangalumata..he also have stubbles which is so unusual.

Naramdaman naman yata Nya ang pag kailang ko Dahil agad syang bumitaw.

"S-sorry..I just missed you badly Angel.." He whispered. Napaiwas Lang ako nang tingin Dahil hindi ko kayang salubungin ang tingin nya.

"Come in."

Pumasok kami at umupo magkaharapan..ramdam namin pareho ang ilangan. Alam kong mahirap Ito para Kay Travis, kaya nag desisyon ako na ang maunang magbukas ng topic.

"Are you the father of Gorgette's baby?"

Napatuwid sya ng upo at nawalan ng kulay ang mukha Nya,obvious din ang pagdaan ng sakit sa kanyang mata.

"Angel..."

"Just tell me the truth!"

Napatango sya sabay yuko.

"I see.."

Ka hit expected ko na na oo ang isasagot nya ay masakit parin pala. It only means that he really did cheat on me.

"I'm sorry.." Lumapit sya sa kinauupuan ko at lumuhod, Kinuha nya ang dalawa kong kamay at mahigpit na hinawakan iyon. "It was an accident and you know that I won't do it intentionally right?! I love you Carra, and I know that you're aware of it."

"And yet you slept with another girl.." I said accusingly.

"I was drunk Angel---"

"That's not an excuse!" I yelled at him.

He nodded and sat in the couch in front of me. Hinawakan nya ang ulo nya na para bang naguguluhan sa iniisip nya.

"I know." He said in a small voice.

"Tell me what happened."

"Angel.."

"Please, I want to know, I deserved to know the truth!"

Napatingin sya saakin. His eyes are puffy too.

"I was so hurt when I saw you and Cian kissing that's why I decided to get drunk." He said while looking through my eyes, I looked away because of that guilt that I am feeling. "Then I don't know what happened next, I just woke up the next day beside her. And then there's blood on the bedsheet. I asked for forgiveness but she told me that she did not regret what happened, because she loves me..She even told me that she's been looking for me for a long time, and that I am her fiancé." He said in a confused voice, like he himself can't believed in what he is saying.

My mouth opened. I don't know what to say.

"She even followed me abroad, she kept on insisting that I love her and that I should leave you.." nailing nyang sabi.

"I-I don't understand.."

"Carra, I had an accident 5 years ago, and I lost my memories."

I gasped.

He never mentioned it before.

" I asked my Mom about it, and yes she knows Gorgette. She said that she met her before because I already introduced her..but when I had an accident she decided to sent me to my grandparents at the states for a quick recovery and she tried to find Gorgette but she failed and so she decided to keep it from me."

"Oh my God?!" Natutop ko ang bibig ko kasabay nang pagtuloy nang luha ko. I suddenly felt bad for Gorgette. Imagine she was left alone and tried to look for her fiancé only to found out that he has already a girlfriend, she even pretended to be a maid just to be near him.

"I..I tried to remember her, but I can't. She told me that we loved each other but I can't feel anything towards her. Because all I know is that you're the one that I love. They said that the mind can forget but the heart can't, but why is it my heart is beating for you and not for her?" he cried. Lumapit ako sakanya at pinunasan ang luha nya.

"Travis.."

"Please Carra, let's start again. Please forgive me and let's forget everything.." he said while hugging me.

"Travis.. we can't, you'll soon be a father.. and Gorgette needs you. She had been hurt, let's not hurt her anymore.." I said while crying too. Humiwalay sa pagkakayakap saakin si Travis at hinawakan ako sa magkabilang balikat.

"How about me Carra? I need you, not her..please don't leave me. You're the one I needed.. I can be a father to her child, I can support the child but you're the one hat I wanted to be with. Maybe I did love her, but you're the one hat I love now.."

"Travis.." umiiyak kong sabi.

"I'm begging Carra, please don't leave me, you know how it hurts to be left alone right?"

And with that I decided to forgive him and give him another chance. After all he was right, I know how it felt to be left alone..hanging.. and he was the one who stayed by my side when I was in his shoes.