To Love You More #Wattys2016

TLYM 4

5 years later...

"Mommy?"

Agad akong nagising sa realidad at umayos ako ng higa ng marinig ang maliit na boses na 'yon. I smiled when a saw Neo at my door holding his helicopter toy on his right hand and a cookie on his left.

"Come baby!" pagtawag ko sa kanya at dali-dali naman syang tumakbo not minding the cookie fell from his grip. He climbed into mu bed ang kissed me thereafter. He giggled when I kissed his neck.

"Mom, stop."

"No baby. Mommy only wants to show her love to you so much", I said while giving him plenty of kisses.

"Mom the breakfast is ready", he said habang umiiwas pa din sa mg halik ko pero hindi nya naman pa din ako maawat. "And daddy is waiting for us downstairs." He added.

I smiled a bit and looked at Neo upon hearing his last sentence. Inayos ko ang buhok nya at tinitigan sya habang nakakaling pa din sa akin. Hindi ko talaga sya maiwasang hindi panggigilan dahil ang cute nya. Neo is only five pero sobrang bibong bata.

"Mom?" He looked at me and played with my hair. Napapangiti ako lalo sa ginagawa nya. He's so sweet.

"Hmm?" I arched my brow telling him to spill it out.

"Are you and daddy are on fight?"

I was lost for words for a moment. Umiwas ako ng tingin sa kanya at bumuntong hininga muna bago sumagot. "No baby, we're not. Why you sudden asked?"

He shrugged. "Daddy kept on staring at me while he's making the dining ready. I don't know why but I am kinda scared."

Niyakap ko sya ng mahigpit. Nagsisikip ang dibdib ko lalo sa sinabi ni Neo. I knew his daddy don't want him but I am not a bitch to tell him that. He's only five years old for Pete's sake! He's a very smart kid and I knew he'll ask me things sooner dahil observant din syang bata.

"Maybe it's only hallucination baby", sabi ko sa kanya. He gave me a sad smile and it broke my heart again.

"Mom.. I knew I am only five but I get things already.. I knew Daddy don't want me."

"Husshh.. You're a big boy.. stop crying na", amo ko sa kanya dahil kita ko ang luha na nasa gilid ng mga mata nya. I don't want to see Neo crying. Masyadong masakit sa puso para sa isang ina na katulad ko.

"Are you guys done with the drama?"

Napatingin kaming dalawa ni Neo sa may pintuan kung saan nakatayo si Frank. He's wearing an apron at seryosong nakatitig sa aming dalawa ni Neo na nagpupunas na ng pisngi.

I glanced at the wall clock and amd found out that it's already eight in the morning.

Napakunot ako ng noo. "You're late for work."

He smirked at tinaasan ako ng kilay. "It's Sunday." walang gana nyang sagot. "Get your ass to the dining. I prepared breakfast." Tumalikod na sya kaagad pagkasabi niyon.

"I told you Mommy, he's cold and distant."

Nilingon ko si Neo na naka-pout. Napangiti ako sa itsura nya. Kung makapagsumbong naman sya parang hindi ko nakita ang itsura ni Frank kanina. Napailing na lang ako at pilit na ngumiti. Pinaharap ko sya sa akin buly cupping his face.

"Neo, you knew Mommy loves you so much right?"

Tumango sya kaagad. I saw a little smile curved on his lips. "I knew mom.. I can feel it.. You're the best mommy in the whole wide world!" iminuwestra nya pa ang mga kamay sa hangin habang ngiting ngiti at nangingislap ang mga mata.