Diary of a Mandu

일기 #33

28 May 2016

Dear diary,

Today in school, I briefly talked to Jun. I saw him coming up the stairs and I was standing out of my classroom, since it was still break time. The moment I saw him, I immediately went, "Hey, it's the cringe worthy boy!" Since he was being so cringe worthy with all the cheesy lines he used when we chatted. I wasn't used to that.

Jun slightly smiled at me after I said that. After saying that, I entered my classroom and fought the weird feeling. It's the weird cringe worthy feeling.

Then after I sat back down in my seat did Baekhee asked me, "You're friends with Jun?"

I smiled back at her and shrugged. No one should know about what happened last night. He told me not to tell anyone, but I couldn't help but tell my friend Sua, since, for some reason, I could tell her about it. What I didn't know was the fact that Sua knew him and that they were friends.

"You knowㅡ" Before she could finish her sentence, I immediately pressed my finger against my lips to hush her. That was when she wrote on a piece of paper to continue.

You know Jun?

I nodded my head shyly and explained everything that has happened just last night. That was mostly what happened in school but when it came to my online life, things were slightly different.

Jun texted me again, with Sua also telling me a few things such as the fact that she asked Jun when he was interested in me. Apparently, Jun sincerely likes me but I couldn't return the feelings since I just met him last night. That would be crazy talk, if I were to be honest. Jun continued to text me as usually doesㅡwith cheesiness of texts. Examples are as:

Jun: I asked for a hug just now in school but you didn't give it to me :(

Dohui: what

Dohui: when

Jun: just now :((

Jun: you didn't give it to me

Dohui: WHY WOULD I GIVE YOU A HUG, WE JUST MET LAST NIGHT

Jun: it's okay, I still love you <3

I have to be really honest. I've never dealt with someone as... I don't even know what to classify Jun as. He treats me like I was his girlfriend, but I didn't even know his full name. All I knew was the fact he was Chinese and that his name was Jun. Every time I try to ask him something to help me get to know him more, he'd reply with "nah, you don't have to know me".

?!?!?!?

If he wants to like me, he should at least try to be friendly and show me his charms so I can return his feelings. If Jun continued to act this way, it'll make me feel the opposite and do the opposite. I wouldn't be able to feel attracted to him since I didn't know him well. I'm a Taurus and I know it's wrong to believe everything you read about my Zodiac sign, but there are times when they are true. Since I'm a Taurus, in order to make them fall in love with you, you have to become friends first. For me, that's true because I can only fall in love with them once I get to know them more. But sometimes, I have a tendency of friend zoning them so that's bad.

Basically, Jun is really frustrating but he's really nice. I don't know what to expect with him, since this is the first.    

Love,
Mandu
(Baek Dohui)