Diary of a Mandu

attempt

13 September 2016

Dear diary,

So it's currently 17:44 and I just sent a message to him. I can't just confess to him right away. Where would my face be by then? But disregarding the fact about Jun, I've got news to share concerning JenSoon ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°). I even drew a face to show how things are turning out.

Jennie got his number (thanks to me wink wink also Jun eek, I should be moving on but okay) and they've been chatting, as to what she has been telling me. She's not too open to other people about this except for me because she has my trust even though we just met this year and it's barely been a year since we've known each other. Well, they do say Cancers and Tauruses are a good match. As in, they go well together.

Anyway, moving on from that. So basically, they're talking virtually in texts. I find them so cute and they're at that point where they're friends. But here's the sad part. Jennie thinks it's hopeless that she tries. Why? Because she thinks he's just warming up to her just to get to me. I told her there's no way that's true. Plus, he's actually a special child, i.e, he has a slight problem with his mental mind but I don't know much about that. Basically, Jennie told me that he would sometimes bring me up in their conversations and she says she might even give up at this point but I'm telling her not to and to hang in there. Because if Soonyoung were to deal with a mess like me, then... it really wouldn't be good on him.

At least, with Jennie, it'd be better. Since she likes him. All he has to do is like him back and then it'd be like a happily ever after. But her situation was basically the same as mine. She likes someone who likes someone else who likes someone else. Sounds confusing? Here, I'll draw a simple drawing that connects.

Jennie likes » Soonyoung, but he likes » me "supposedly" and I like » Jun, who likes nobody at the moment, I guess

Yeah, so that's the drawing and oH mY gOsh!!! He replied!! Okay, I'm going to go and text first and I'll fill you back in later.

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You know what my plan was, diary. That I confess and get over him, "supposedly". So we chatted and we're friends now, for sure. Why does it sound depressing? Because I did confess but this was what he texted me back:

Jun: I feel bad cuz I was the one who liked you first and I lost feelings for you alrdy

Jun: I guess I got you attached

Jun: but you deserve someone better than me, dohui

I'm not sad, surprisingly. In fact, I'm actually relieved? I think it's because I managed to confess to him before I end up falling into, once again, another unrequited love trap. I know now that I have to move on. Gladly, I ended this hopeless and nonsensical chapter of my life. Or my love story, that is.

Love,
Mandu
(Baek Dohui)

~Author's Notes~ 

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