Diary of a Mandu

일기 #38

4 June 2016

Dear diary,

Helloooooooo.

I'm still a little depressed. Okay, maybe a lot. I'm really tired and I don't have the mood. I see and feel the things around me differently. There's this saying I came up with because of Pineapple. "One wrong event can change the way you see and feel about things." That's what has happened to me.

I have ten more minutes before I leave my apartment and go to that museum where we'll learn about Korea more. I keep checking my phone, in hope I would get a message from Jun but there's nothing at all. I'm starting to believe that delusional fantasy I keep having. Well, sad luck for me because miracles don't happen. I know that now.

The song that suits our situation right now is Ribbon by Beast. I really want to tie up our ribbon that came undone. I want everything to be back to normal but will that happen? Of course, no.

I don't want to bring my phone. I'm better with it out. No one really texts me. It's not like phones are allowed in the museum anyway so it won't be much use to me. At least, for the time being, I get to experience something new without my phone being there, acting as a distraction.

Oh, I have to go now. My mom's telling me to leave. Goodbye, diary. I'll write to you later. I want to tell you about my museum experience.

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WOAH!! Okay, first thing's first: museum experience.

So we went to Seoul Museum of History and it's my second time going there. The last time I went there was eleven years ago, when I was just in kindergarten, because we had a school field trip. That was a really long time ago, so I can't remember much of the museum right now but yeah, moving on.

I learned a lot about Koreaㅡmore than I already know. The museum really went in detail and even displayed priceless relics and antiques from way back then from the Korean war. They even showed how King Seojung the Great created Hangul. It was really educational.

While with my friends, I was able to slightly forget what has happened the night before concerning Jun. Keyword: slightly. The entire time I was at the museum, I kept replaying what had happened and what could happen if things were different. While everyone had real smiles on, I forged the smile I used to smile before Pineapple.

AND GUESS WHAT HAPPENED ONCE I GOT HOME? No, there was no surprise party or food or cake or whatever. But my eyes really enlarged when I saw the notifications on my phone.

So I entered my room like any other, took a seat on my bed, let out a heavy sigh, picked up my phone, didn't screen locked it because I wasn't really expecting anything because of what happened last night. I stared at the end of the bed a little more before I rested my head comfortably on the pillow I had on my bed. Finally, I screen locked my phone and then saw something really surprising.

2 Missed calls from Jun

1 Missed calls from Jun (LINE)

That was surprising to me. There were no messages at all, just missed calls. So I ended up asking him why he called me in texts and you know what I got instead? I got an incoming call Jun himself. I was so unsure what I was supposed to do that I entered my bathroom, locked the door, and sat in the corner of the bathroom and picked up the call. Here, I'll write down how our phone call conversation went:

"Hello?" I asked after answering his call.

"Hello?" Jun asked on the other line.

I'm really awkward when it comes to talking to someone on the phone. I wasn't sure how this will turn out. "Hello? Jun?"