Diary of a Mandu

일기 #45

12 June 2016

Dear diary,

Jun is slowly turning back to the boy I used to know before he started distancing himself away from me because he thought he was being a nuisance to me, which he was not. I'm glad he's slowly loosening up and showing me some of his charms, which made the lowkey-ness rise up. At this point, I could even already consider him as a crush. I told Sojin, Jennie, Baekhee and Sua that. All their reactions were different but also similar in a sense that they were rooting me. I also knew that Jennie, acting like a protective mother though she was younger than me by two months, warned me not to get hurt in the process. What's there left to hurt? Jun had already left a big scar that time when I really thought he said goodbye for real.

The ship name and teases never died down and Jun kept apologizing for it but I told him I didn't mind and said I found it entertaining. In fact, I was dropping another hint right there but I wasn't even sure if he noticed it. I bet he didn't. He's a clueless boy but you'll never know. He could surprise you at any time.

Sometimes, when he has to get somewhere, he uses the way that passes by our class, because our class was right next to the flight of stairs. There were another flight of stairs two classes away from his and I know he usually uses that way to get places before he met me but these days, I see him passing by my class with Mingyu. At times, I would notice him and actually acknowledge him by waving a hello but most of the times, I would pretend he wasn't even there. I was a hard to get girl, but sometimes my heart could be won over easily when you do the right things.

Sua, who was the most frustrated over Pineapple, has finally calmed down and is now rooting for us. She took her words back. The one where she said we weren't meant to be. It wasn't because we weren't meant to be together. It's because we didn't work hard enough to change that fact. But now that we're trying, a miracle might even happen.

I'm learning and getting to know Jun a little more and he's getting to know me a little more too. I would sometimes chat up with him, but only briefly because I'm really shy around the person I like. When he has a poker face on, he literally just looks like he wants to kill everybody in the room but once he smiles, he immediately looks like a cinnamon bun roll. I like his smile. A lot.

Nothing new has been happening since everything is on neutral zone but from now on, I'll try what Jun has been doing to me before. Flirting. I'm not sure if I'll do a good job, though. After all, I already told Jun that most of the times I talk or chat with someone, I would always be joking around.     

Hmm... wish me luck then, diary. 

Love, 
Mandu
(Baek Dohui)

~Author's Notes~

I went to school today and my friend and I were the only two students that came to school. Imagine that! A school with a large number of students and today, only my friends and I went! Heol! Of course, there were teachers there. 

It's after the final year exams and basically, people are getting more and more lazy in coming to school. I went to school today because I got a little bored at home and decided to watch dramas with her in school and I needed to get some notices from my class teacher so it was a win-win situation. (Winwin oppa?)

xoxo

Byun Sang Kyung