19 June 2016
Dear diary,
I gave it days. I took a break. I hoped things would get better but I realized we only drifted away. But I know I'm just being delusional again. I knew we drifted away ever since he said he just wanted us to be friends. I may seem and look fine in school but once I leave that place, I become a huge wreck. It should be the opposite but Jun awakens this instinct I never knew I had in me. In school, I act fine and great because I want to show Jun that he hasn't affected me. I want to show everyone that him getting hurt by me has not affected me whatsoever. But I'm losing it these days. I become my obvious. I can't blame myself, though. Once in a while, people will explode, they'll lose themselves, they won't be fine. I'm going to be fine, just not at this moment. I've been through mini depression. I know it won't last. But this one's affecting me a lot. I know I shouldn't let it affect me but there's a powerful impact to it. And it's definitely not going to be easy. A crush, strings of feelings, two people, they're all on the line. Who's going to get hurt the most in the end? It's a battle between us, the world, our split difference, our emotions and our head.
Love,
Mandu
(Baek Dohui)
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