08 May 2016
Dear diary,
Before anything, happy birthday to me!! I'm now 16 and I'm the first among my friends to turn 16 since I'm the eldest. Although, I wasn't sure what to expect on this birthday of mine. Life's always full of surprises, keep that in mind.
Sungcheol came back. He actually did. He texted, it was so hard pretending that I didn't know you. I'm so sorry, Dohui. I won't ignore you like this anymore. I'm sorry. I love you and happy birthday.
That last part made me want to cry thinking about the pain I've given him.
The way I've hurt him. But I had to end this. I didn't want to lead him on with anything when I clearly didn't feel the same. So I replied to him, I'm really sorry, but I don't feel the same way. I like you as a best friend, Cheol-a. I'm sorry I can't return your feelings because I don't feel the same way. I understand if you want time away from me.
Sungcheol said it was fine and that he was already trying to get over me and that me being understanding were one of the many reasons he liked me. I had long known he liked me, but I always wished he had never confessed. Once he has taken title of being my best friend, I won't be able to change that to boyfriend. He's far too out in that friend zoned island. Too far to be retrieved back. Because of that, I can't reconsider my feelings and like him. I'll be hurt. We'll both be hurt, but I can accept and understand that. It's how everything goes.
But still, Sungcheol, I'm glad you came back.
Love,
Mandu
(Baek Dohui)
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