'I Promise' {T.F. Fan Fiction} (COMPLETED) (EDITING)

Riley Fox

Mia's POV

I feel empty inside, like a piece of me has been ripped out.

I think we all know what is wrong with my body.

I'm not able to carry children.

I went to the doctors once to get surgery. That wasn't long ago. He said it was successful, but that I should wait a long time until I get pregnant.

I haven't really talked to anyone but the doctor, I know I shouldn't keep my feelings locked away but I don't feel like crying will help. I didn't even get to tell Tanner, he found out before me. I wonder if he's mad. Right now he just left to go get food because everything here tastes like death.

Hailey is with me which I'm very happy about, but also I don't want my friend to see me like this. "This" meaning like depressed and other crap like that, she's never really dealt with that before and I don't want her to see how bad it can be.

Everyone is worried about me. Everyone thinks that the wrong words will make me break down, but no. I don't break down that easily.

I've been sleeping most of the day, I've been taking lots of pain medication because one, my head hurts, two my insides hurt. I've really been out of it. Like it's daytime then it's nighttime in like the span of one second. I think I need to talk to someone.

I need Tanner.

He's stayed with me the whole time. He's barely left the hospital, his fans were starting to think he was dead or something.

It is currently 3:24 pm and I can't sleep. I need to vent. I rolled onto my other side to face Tanner. He was on his phone and he didn't seem to notice I was staring at him "Tanner" I said weakly. His head shot up and he walked quickly to my bed, and held my hand "Hey beautiful. How you feeling?" "As good as I can be. I just need to talk to someone" "I'm right here, you can always talk to me. I'm just happy you are talking" "I'm sorry if I worried you, I just didn't know what to say" "Don't worry I know you don't like to show your emotions a lot" I just nodded "Can I have a hug please?" Tanner smiled "You don't even have to ask" He got up and hugged me. I hugged him back tighter and I started to feel tears form in my eyes. I sniffed and Tanner pulled back, he gave me a small smile and kissed my forehead "It's okay. I'm right here, I'm not leaving" "Are you mad at me?" He shook his head "Why would I be mad?" "For not telling you that I am- was pregnant" "I was a little disappointed, but then Hailey told me that you and her were planning on a way to tell me. She also said you were nervous on how I would react. Why were you nervous?" I put my head down and said "Because I thought you wouldn't want the baby" "You shouldn't have worried about that. Of course I would've wanted the baby. I'm not that kind of boyfriend that would make you feel bad and make you get an abortion, yeah a baby is a huge responsibility but I think we could handle it" I started to feel the tears and my vision started to get cloudy "But I can't have children Tanner" I looked up and Tanner was just staring at me. A tear slipped down my cheek and he said "Oh Mia. I'm so sorry, the doctor didn't tell me. Don't cry please don't" He pulled me into a hug and I cried into his shoulder.

All the emotions that I kept inside, are just bursting out and I couldn't stop it. When Tanner was in the cafeteria the doctor came in and told me the effects of this. He told me the reason why my body rejected the baby. It was because I couldn't carry one. I can never have children.

Tanner moved his hand up and down my back as I cried into his shoulder. After a few minutes I started to calm down and Tanner pulled away to face me. He had tears in his eyes too. He put his hand on my cheek and said "I don't care that we can't have children. That won't stop us from living our lives. We love each other so much. I know you want kids but there are other options. We can adopt and child who's family weren't good enough. We could help other children. So what that they aren't blood. Blood doesn't make a family. Love does. And I love you so so so so much. Just because there is this one obstacle in our life doesn't mean that we can't beat it (I have no idea what the fuck I just said lmao) I love you and this isn't going to stop us" I looked at him amazed. I had a lose of words, that was an amazing speech. He's right, we can't let this get the best of us "You're amazing Tanner. Do you know that?" I smiled "I've missed that smile" He leaned in and kissed my lips.

Me and Tanner just laid on my bed cuddling. I was curious. Could I name our baby even thought he/she wasn't fully grown. I think I will "Tanner?" "Mhm" "Do you think we could name our baby?" I could feel him smile against my head "Of course we can. What do you want to name the baby?"

"Riley Fox"