'I Promise' {T.F. Fan Fiction} (COMPLETED) (EDITING)

Crying and heartbroken again

Guys, I'm such an ass.

Me and the guy I like got in a fight, because I haven't been able to talk to him for the past week, and I feel like an ass because I want to talk to him too, but sometimes I'm too tired to talk, and if we're face timing and I'm tired ass hell, I don't want to see rude and be all like "what did you say?" Or almost fall asleep.

I've wanted to cry, but the tears won't come out. A lot of crap has happened recently, and I just don't know how to feel anymore, I just want a hug or something. But I know if that happens, I'll break down, and all the emotions I've kept inside, will spill out, and that won't be good.

Thing kid at my school keeps on making fun of me for watching Tanner Fox, but I don't even like him anymore, so it pisses me off. And my crush does that too, and it gets annoying, and he knows I can get pissed off easily.

When we started fighting, i tried so hard to be nice, and understanding, but on the inside, I just want to scream and cry. Y'all may think I'm pathetic, but this is my first, real kind of relationship with a guy that actually likes me back, and it hurts because he moved, and he won't be in the same school as me next year, and idk about high school.

I really can't guys, I honestly don't feel mentally, and physically okay. Like I don't even know how I get up in the morning.

I just want to cry.

God I sound depressing. Maybe I am depressed, but honestly who gives a damn, obviously no one, because I don't say anything. Tomorrow is going to hell, I have my first french final, and I know I'm going to get a bad grade.

You want to know what school and life have in common right now? They're both pointless and suck ass.

My tooth hurts, and I'm tired, sad, and I'm having an existential crisis!

FML