'I Promise' {T.F. Fan Fiction} (COMPLETED) (EDITING)

Well okay....

Okay I don't know what to feel right now, so I'm just going to say it.

So not even 5 minutes ago, I went on Instagram and on one of Tanner Fo's fan page that I follow, has like an edit of saying that he was dating a girl name Taylor?

I think it's true, but like, I have no idea who this girl is.

And I'm not going to be a bitch and hate on their relationship, I mean if Tanner's happy, then shouldn't we? Like he deserves to be happy, and if him being able to be out there about his relationship with someone, then well we can't do anything about it.

Like I didn't even know this was going on, and apparently they announced it not that long ago, like when I saw it, part of me was hoping it was real, and the other part of me was praying it was fake. Like my heart was beating fast, and like I was shaking, I still am but like I don't even know.

I mean this fanfic is about a relationship between Mia and Tanner. And now Tanner has a girlfriend. I'm not saying I'm ending this, because I'm not. But like it kind of defeats the purpose. I'm not blaming tanner at all actually. Like I support his 100% because that's what a fan does, supports the person they are a fan of.

And you know what I'm getting pissed off with the comment that are on Taylor's Instagram. Like seriously wtf? If you were a real fan, you wouldn't be hating on his girlfriend. Like come on, I think people just get way to caught up with this kind of stuff.

Like I really don't want to seem like a bitch and say this but this is what I tell myself. You will most likely never meet him, so stop dreaming that you will, and deal with it. That's what I tell myself, and I think some people need to hear it, like I feel like I want to cry but like most of me right now hopes I'll forget this.

You all know that, that happens a lot, me losing memory of stuff and I kind of hopes that it'll happen now. I support their relationship 100% it's like I can't do anything about it, so why not support them, it's the least I can do.

Comment down what you think, I'm still in "shock" about it, but we all knew it was going to happen sooner or later. I just hope Tanner doesn't get so much hate, neither Taylor like, they don't deserve it.

Yesterday I wasn't feeling myself, like I felt something was wrong, like a part of me was missing. So in my sketch book I wrote down what I felt, but then I ripped it apart. Like I didn't know how I felt and I just- I really don't know anymore like, I think I'm so use to daydreaming happiness with finding someone and loving them, that I just get so caught up that I think it's real. I wrote this down "How the hell am I suppose to live, if I'm drowning in fake happiness". It's like what I wrote in the chapter cut cut cut, were I put "How the hell am I suppose to live, if I'm drowning in guilt". Ugh wtf is wrong with me.

Fml, just fml.

I want to cry, I feel like that's what I need to do. I need to let my emotions out. Like I had this thought. I should go to a place that's like abandoned or something and just scream. Like let all my feelings out. The abandoned part because I don't want people to think I'm getting murdered or something. I feel like if I keep my emotions bottled up inside me, that at any given moment I'll break, like I'm known for the showing if I'm sad, mad, or just any unhappy feeling. I just don't like to show it, and I don't know why.

I don't know how to feel, but it's weird because there are a bunch of fanfics that are about Tanner and themselves dating, and now it probably is weird because now tanner is dating someone- idfk.

Whatever I'm just going to stop talking.

I'll post tomorrow, hope you guys have a good day

Love,
Mia