'I Promise' {T.F. Fan Fiction} (COMPLETED) (EDITING)

Avoiding

Mia's POV

As I sat in the living room of my old house, I thought over all the things that had just happened.

One, Madison is back. Two, her and tanner have been seeing each other. And three, Tanner said they kissed, and a bunch of other stuff happened.

Never in a million years, would I ever think that Tanner would do this. I thought he loved me enough to not cheat. We have a family now, he has a daughter, and now it's all messed up.

I stared at the wall, for god knows how long, but the sounds of Nevaeh fussing brought me back to reality. I sniffed, and walked over to her little crib. I picked her up slowly, and started to sway, and hum a lullaby. She continues to fuss, and tears welled up in my eyes. Tanner was always better wth getting her to sleep, she hasn't seen him since this morning, it's now 7:42 pm "Come on baby, please calm down, mommy's here, you'll be okay" Tears started to stream down my cheeks, and Nevaeh was starting to cry as well. I heard the front door open. I turned my head, startled, but relaxed to see that it was only my aunt. She dropped her things and walked over to me "Do you want me to help" "I-i can't do t-this a-untie. She m-missed h-him, and he's w-way better at c-calming here down" "Let me sweetheart" I handed Nevaeh over to my aunt, and walked into the bathroom. I slid down the door, and started bawling my eyes out.

How could he do that to me? To us! He wanted a family, and he just threw it away. For what? For that gold-digger cake face?

I looked around the bathroom to find some tissues, but then remembered they're under the sink. I crawled over to the sink, and opened the cabinets under. As I was looking through the cabinet, something pricked my finger. I winched, and brought my finger back. There was some blood starting to come out of my finger. I turned on my phones flashlights and moved stuff around to find what cut me. My heart sank, as I saw the one thing that I've kept hidden for two years. I slowly picked it up, and put it on the counter. I got up, shaking, and stood in front of the mirror.

I was a mess.

My hair in knots, mascara running down my cheeks, my eyes bloodshot red, my face splotchy from my tears. I looked down at the small, metal object, and brought it in my hand. I promised to myself and Tanner that I would never do, what I did before. And that was to never cut again.

I just looked down at the blade, and sighed.

Oh how many reasons I have to do, what I'm about to do.

I brought the blade to my other arms, and touched it to my skin. Tears ran down my cheeks, and I sighed. I dragged the blade across my wrist, and almost cried out.

That one, was for letting Tanner slip out of my hands. For letting him get away.

I threw the blade out, and cleaned up everything before I walked out. When I walked back to the living room, my aunt had somehow got Nevaeh to sleep. She turned around when she heard my footsteps "You need rest sweetheart, I can take care of Nevaeh while you sleep" "I can't let you do that, I know you're exhausted from work" "You need more sleep, than I do" She smiled and kissed my forehead "You can sleep in the guest room" I smiled the best smile I could at this time, and walked upstairs, and into the guest bedroom. I sometimes went in here for sleepovers with Hailey, but other than that, this room wasn't useful. I laid down on the bed, and sighed into the pillow.

I don't want Nevaeh to be raised by one parent, I want her to have two parents who don't hate each other. I don't want to feel like this.

The next day.

I woke up to the sound of my phone vibrating. I checked it to see that I had tons of messages from Hailey, Jake, and especially Tanner. Most of his texts were You didn't let me explain what really happened. Please let me explain. Maybe I should, maybe I shouldn't, but my heart and mind was telling me, for my sanity, that I should hear him out. I took a deep breath and started typing.

Can you come to my aunt and uncles house, I decided that we should talk.

I waited, and waited for a response, and got one.

Of course, want me to come now? Is Nevaeh okay? Where is she? Is she with you aunt at work? Did she got with your uncle?

I always loved how he got so protective of me and Nevaeh.

She's with my aunt, and you can come now if you want.

I'll be over in 5

Eager much? I didn't feel like doing anything about me, except brush my teeth and hair.

After I did all of that, I heard the doorbell ring, and I froze. I'm actually going to see him, what if what happened ruins me? I slowly unlocked the door, and opened it. Tanner was standing in front of me, looking almost exactly like me. Hair is a mess, eyes are bloodshot, he just looks a mess "Hi" I said. He gave me a weak smile, and said "Hello" I motioned him to come in, and he slowly walked past me "Let's sit down" He nodded his head, and walked over to the couch. I followed after him, but sat on the other side of the couch. He knew why I was far away, but he was still hurt that I feel like I have to stay away. I took a shaky breath, and Tanner looked up at me "Me and Madison never made out if that's what you're thinking" I looked at him, and said "Then what really happened?" I croaked. He shifted and inch closer to me, and grabbed my left hand "Do you promise to tell the truth, and nothing but the truth?" I was anxious for his answer. He looked at our hands, and half smiled. He looked up and me, and said.

"I promise"