'I Promise' {T.F. Fan Fiction} (COMPLETED) (EDITING)

After

Mia's POV

After I cut, I cleaned up the blood on my wrists and cried myself to sleep. I've done it before almost every night in the 8th grade.

I woke up with my wrists sore but that usually happens after you cut, I'm used to it. I checked my phone to see a bunch of messages from Tanner.

Tanner Nanner!💖💖💙💙
Are you okay?
Please talk to me!
I'm sorry
Please
I miss you
I don't want us to end like this
You're my girlfriend
Please just tell me you're okay?!

True the least I can do it tell him I'm alive. So I texted him back "Of course I'm not okay Tanner, but I'm alive at least" I sent it and turned my phone off. Not even 5 seconds later my phone buzzed and I checked it.

Tanner Nanner!💖💖💙💙
Thank god you're okay! I don't know what I would do if something happened to you! I know you're not okay neither am I. Can we at least see each other before I leave?

I didn't want to see him right now, he would see my new scars easily, I'm not going to wear a long sleeved shirt in the spring IN CALIFORNIA so I replied saying "Sorry Tanner I can't see you, my dad is coming home and I need to get the house straightened up. I'll come by later to get my stuff but then I'll be out as soon as I get my stuff and my car" I sent the text and waited for his reply.

He didn't reply. I got out of bed and got dressed, brushed my hair, teeth, and put concealer on my wrists so that my scars wouldn't be viable. I got my things and walked to Tanner's house which I was absolutely dreading, I knew he was home.

Once I got there I knocked on the door and Tanner answered. His eyes were red and puffy and his cheeks were stained with tears, I hated seeing him like this "Hi. I need to get my stuff" He nodded and walked away. Great, he's not talking to me anymore. I went to his room and got my clothes, chargers, laptop, pillow, and blanket. Tanner walked in and held out the keys to my car, I grabbed them "Thanks" I said while giving him a weak smile "You need help" I nodded and he carried my blanket and pillow out to my car. We put everything in the trunk and before I got into my car Tanner said "Mia hold up a sec" I slowly turned to see him have tears in his eyes "I'm sorry that it ended this way" "I know" I managed to choke out. He started to walk away and I just stood there. I was about to get in my car when I heard him say "Fuck it" I heard footsteps run to me, and someone grab my arm making me turn back. Before I could say something his lips crashed into mine. I just stood there amazed but then realized it was wrong. I started to feel tears coming and I pulled back, with tears on my cheeks. I bit my bottom lip and Tanner said "I-I" He didn't finish his sentence so he ran into his house and slammed the door. I got into my car and drove away to my house.

Once I got to my house I ran upstairs and cried into my pillow. I opened my suitcase to see one of Tanner's shirts in there, it still smelt like his cologne. I cried harder and ran down stairs and threw it into the fire place. I fell to the ground crying uncontrollably. My heart ached and I wanted to die. I ran to my room and started to wreck everything. I was angry sad, no depressed. I couldn't stop crying. I wanted to die but I also didn't, I stopped what I was doing and I collapsed onto the floor. I felt horrible I couldn't get this feeling to go away.

I loved him.

Tanner's POV

IM SUCH A FUCKING IDIOT. WHY DID I KISS HER!? SHE WAS ALREADY IN PAIN NOW I MADE IT WORSE. I ran to my car and got some glasses that I was going to use for a video and ran inside. I was so angry at myself. I picked up a glass and threw it at the wall, it shattered to pieces. I kept throwing them trying to let off steam. I felt great.

Once I ran out of glasses I fell onto my knees and started to cry. I couldn't stop these feelings inside me. Regret. Anger. Depression. Worry. And most of all love. God I loved her. I loved her so much! But she's never going to love me back.

I can promise myself that.