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Chapter 20

There were no more messages from Logan the whole weekend. I spent the weekend with Alyssa. We were facing our own break-up situation. Ben had told his new girlfriend that he had once liked Alyssa and told her every little detail of the whole story. Ben's girlfriend told him that she didn't want him hanging out with us anymore because she was worried that we would try something. Ben, being the hopeless romantic that only lives to love, agreed to stop seeing us so much. However, it was still obvious that Ben cared more for Alyssa than he ever did Geneva. That's how Alyssa knew Ben was cutting ties with us.

Alyssa and I spent the weekend watching unrealistic romantic movies with dreamy lead characters. She and Mitchel were doing fine, but he was always busy with other things. He seemed to never be able to hang out with her. Deep down I knew this guy was no good. I was not going to say anything because doing so would only lead us right back to where we were a year ago when she was telling me that Luis was a cult leader.

I wouldn't say that Mitchel was a cult leader, but he sure wasn't telling her the whole truth. He made excuses to never come to her house or go to any public place to hang-out with her. If I were to bring this to her attention she would only defend him and push me away. The same way it happened last year with Luis and me.

I couldn't help but have my mind wonder to Logan and Anna. Logan was mysterious and closed off from the world by his own choosing. However, when he let you in, you would be able to see brighter. His laughs, though very rare, were filled with pure happiness and joy. His eyes, even though closed off, were filled with care and attention when he looked at you. Something irked me about him and Anna being together. It was most likely the idea that they weren't stable, but yet continued to believe they could follow through the next time around.

I would have to face him tomorrow morning, but this time would be different. I would leave school right after lunch and drive over to the Panera Bread. I would order something to eat and sit there and work on homework until I had to pick-up David. In first period I wouldn't make it obvious and change seats, but I would pay little attention to the antics that Bradley and James dragged him into. And under no circumstances would I look him in the eye.

Why am I making all these rules for myself for a guy that I have no interest in? There was a mixture of worry and respect. I knew that Logan seemed to be a great guy, but in all reality I knew nothing about him. He was a stranger to me. I knew that I could only limit our interactions to when Bradley and James were around. This way the conversations were only pure joking and nothing serious. Most importantly I was making these rules because I respect the idea of a relationship and if they are actually going to try and make this work then I need to remain completely out of the way. If Anna doesn't want me being friends with him then I won't be.