To Die For (Sequel To Lost It All) {5} [COMPLETED]

Chapter 100

Chapter 100

Andy's POV

I was in bed with Jessica, you know, doing stuff, when all of a sudden, her face went blank. 

"Jessica?" I pulled out right as her body started to seize. "SHIT!" I exclaimed, getting on the bed next to her. I rolled her on her side and made sure she didn't hurt herself. As she seized, I called 911 to get an ambulance to the house. Her seizure stopped a few moments later and I held her hand. The ambulance arrived five minutes later and rushed into our bedroom. They loaded her onto a gurney and took her out of the house. I was allowed to ride in the ambulance and watched as they worked on my wife.

We finally arrived at the hospital and they rushed her in, leaving me in the waiting room. I paced and rocked back and forth. I couldn't help but just sit there, hoping she still had a few years left. I wasn't ready for her to leave me.

"Andy Biersack." I stood up and rushed over to the doctor. "Your wife seems to be fine. She just had a seizure, which is to be expected due to her cancer. We just want to keep her overnight for observation. Unfortunately, as her cancer progresses, she will have seizures more often. In the future, these seizures shouldn't be too alarming so there's no need to bring her here. Only bring her here if she doesn't become conscious again after thirty minutes, if she got injured during the seizure or if there's any alarming signs like foaming at the mouth or she stops breathing."

"Thank you so much, can I go see her?"

"Of course." He gave me her room number and I rushed down the hall. I walked into her room to see her laying in the bed.

"Jessica?" I asked, walking over to her and grabbing her hand.

"Hey." She smiled, obviously doped up on meds. "When can I get out of here?"

"Hopefully tomorrow. The doctor said your seizure was caused by your cancer so they just want to keep you for observation."

"Okay, I'm tired." She said, closing her eyes, causing me to chuckle.

"Okay, I'll be back in the morning, okay?"

"No, stay. Please." She said, sticking her upper lip out and pouting like a child.

"I'll ask." I said, kissing her forehead and leaving the room.

*One Month Later*

I sat in the waiting room, bouncing my leg. Today was Jessica's last day of radiation and both of the side effects of the cancer and the radiation has hit her full force. She's tired constantly, she started throwing up two weeks ago, she's completely bald now, not even a bit of peach fuzz on her head, she's noticeably weaker and isn't able to walk long distances anymore. She's lost a lot of wait, which comes in handy since I just carry her when she falls asleep. 

We've attempted to do more items on her bucket list, but lately she's just been too tired and weak to do anything.

I heard the door open and saw Jessica walk back into the waiting room. I stood up and rushed over to her.

"Hey, how was it."

"I'm just glad to be done."

"I know love." I said, kissing her lips. 

"Dr. Stevens wants to see us in her office." She said and I nodded. She led me back to her office and we knocked on the door.

"Come in!" She called and we opened the door. "Hello Jessica, Andy, take a seat." She said as we walked in. We sat down and I grabbed my wife's hand, holding onto it tight. "First of all, congratulations on finishing radiation."

"Yeah, if only it hadn't of made me feel so shitty."

"I know, but isn't this all worth prolonging your life?"

"Okay, but I feel shitty. I'd rather die then sit here suffering for a few more years."

"Don't say that." I hissed.

"Why not? This isn't a life if I'm sick and miserable all the time."

"Okay, let's just move on. I want to schedule a follow up appointment on Friday at one, does that sound okay?"

"Yeah." Jessica let out a breath.

"Okay, at the appointment we will conduct some tests and try to get a surgery date in place. Does that sound good?"

"Yes." Jesicca said.

"Alright, I will see you then." She smiled.

"Thank you." I said as we stood up and left. We walked out to the car and rode home silently. I hated when we fought, especially because we have such limited time together, but married couples fight. You can't really avoid it.

"Andy-" Jessica said once I pulled into the driveway.

"I don't ever want to hear that again." I gripped the steering wheel and looked forward.

"And-"

"No! Dammit Jessica! You are dying! You don't get to say you want to die because you're sick or frustrated! You get to die and leave me alone and I want to prolong that for as long as I can! And dammit, I don't care if that's selfish because once you're gone, my life is over and I'm not ready for my life to be over." I sobbed.

"Andy." She unbuckled her seat belt and leaned over, wrapping her arms around me. "I'm sorry. I'll stop, I promise." I wrapped my arms around her and calmed down a bit. "I love you."

"I love you too." I said, kissing her lips.

***

"Jessica Biersack." We stood up and followed the nurse to an exam room. She conducted a few tests on Jessica before leaving the room. We waited for about five minutes untilt he doctor walked in.

"Hello, nice to see you too again." She smiled, sitting on he stool next to the counter. She opened Jessica's folder and started looking over the results. "Well, everything looks good. I want to schedule you for a CT scan on Monday and then we can decide on a date for your surgery."

"Oh come on." I groaned.

"Andy." Jessica hissed, slapping my arm.

"Mr. Biersa-"

"I thought we were coming in today to talk about the surgery? Why didn't you just do the CT today?"

Mr. Biersack, I needed to see if your wife's vitals and levels were in the range I wanted to even go through with surgery. I wanted to make sure everything was fine with your wife before I scheduled a CT."

"Everything is not fine with her! She has terminal cancer!"

"Mr. Biersack! I have been through this exact type of cancer many times, okay? I know what I'm doing and this is your first time, as far as I'm aware. Now, you have three options. You can let me do what I have a degree to do, you can let your wife go through this alone, or the two of you can find another doctor."

"Andy, please don't piss off the woman in charge of my brain."

"Fine." I grumbled, crossing my arms over my chest.

"Okay, so we're going to get you a CT on Monday and then we'll talk surgery details. Does that sound good, Jessica?" 

"Yes ma'am."

"Awesome." She smiled, writing some things down.

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I know this chapter kinda skipped around, sorry.

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