The Orinia (Part 2 of Nellwyn's advetures)

The Talk

If you thought the president was evil before, you have no idea how it feels to be researching online only to find out that your president is actually Satan. Especially when you're told by the king of hell after 3 hours of thinking you were onto something. It had been nearly two weeks of nothing but that research, and after finding that fact, we decided to sleep on it for the night. Castiel promised to be there by morning. Crowley dropped off the radar.

I couldn't sleep though. I kept hearing crying in my sleep. It was waking me up all hours of the night. Crying. Screaming. Not the normal crying and screaming either.It was as if someone had dropped a baby in a room next to mine that didn't exist enough for me to go in there and sooth the distressed child. My sister, when she was an infant, sounded the exact same.And, old habits still linger, because I found myself, multiple times,crawling out of bed and making my way over to the source of previously mentioned noise.

Dean found me in the kitchen, sitting at the table with my hands over my ears.

"It's okay Amelia... stop crying Amelia... What's wrong? It's okay... I'm here..." I was muttering,half asleep, sleep walking to the sound of this baby ringing in my ears. My subconscious desperately wanting it to be my little sister waking me up from this bad dream that had become my life. "It's all going to be okay... don't be scared..." I rubbed my eyes and jumped when Dean set his hand on my shoulder.

"Are you okay? What are you doing?"He asked. The crying ceased at his words. I stared at him and looked around.

"I have... no idea." I muttered,putting my head into my hands. I heard him sigh as he patted my shoulder gently.

"Do you want to talk about it?" He asked. I looked over at him.

"You mean purgatory. No." I grumbled, getting up and moving past him.

Dean put a hand on my shoulder and gently pushed me down into a chair.

"We need to have a talk." He said. I stared at him. "I've been to purgatory you know." He said. I breathed out. "I know what that place can do to you." He sat down across from me.

"I'm okay, Dean." I said, not looking at him now. "I just want to go back to bed." I rubbed my face.

"Nellwyn." He said,making me look back at him. "You killed all those Nazi's. Alone."He said. I rolled my eyes. "And at Asa's? Nell,the look you had, it was like... like something I've never seen."He sat back.

"That wasn't me, Dean.I promise you that. It won't happen again. So please. Just let me go to sleep." I adjusted myself in my chair.

"What happened in purgatory." Dean asked.

I froze. He waited.

"I don't want to talk about that." I shook my head. "I'm done talking to you." I stood up. Dean stood as well.

"No you're not, we'redone here when I say we're done." He demanded angrily.

"Why can't you leave me alone!?" I shouted at him.

"Because you've been acting off since you got back Nellwyn!" Dean shouted back. "You almost killed mom! And Jody. You've been mean and ruthless, and, and dangerous to yourself. Hell, kid, you blew someone's head to pieces!"He waved his arms. "You think I could leave you alone after seeing that?! Huh!?" He pushed me not so gently back into the chair.

I sort of lost my cool at that moment.

"You really want to know what happened!?" I yelled.

"Enlighten me!" Dean shot.

"I got to purgatory and I was scared and alone!" I shouted, my breath hitching my my throat and throwing Dean into silence. "I was attacked every single day by monsters that I barely knew how to kill!" I stood up and started pacing. "But then..." I looked over at Dean from the corner of my eye. "I decided to let go." I composed myself. "If they were gonna hunt me down and try to kill me like I was some sort of beast,then hell, I'd give them the beast." I walked back and forth as Dean watched me. "I let loose, Dean." I looked at him, tears rolling down my cheeks. "I let loose on all those... those horrible things and it felt so good." I sat down in a chair and put my head in my hands. "It felt too good..."

"Kid-"

"And then." I cut him off. "And then I met..." I shook my head. "They made me feel like it was okay to let loose. To rip and tear through monsters like it was nothing." I gave Dean a smile. "Because all hail the Queen, Dean." I chuckled.

"What are you talking about?" He asked, holding a hand out to try and calm me down.

I could feel the insanity in my eyes as I stared into Dean's.

"They were nothing compared me, Dean. Those things were nothing compared to the Orinia."I started to laugh, uncontrollably. "They called me a Queen." Iran a hand through my hair. "Dean... They treated me like I was a God." I stood up again. "No one could touch me! I was everything they feared! I was merciless, a savage!" I moved towards Dean,dropping my voice to a low whisper. "With a single hand motion... I could blow their heads to pieces." Dean looked at me, horrified. I felt more tears coming down my face and he pulled me into a hug. "I had to become a monster Dean. I was this ruthless monster... and I loved every single second." I sobbed into his chest as I squeezed him tight.

"I'm sorry, Nellwyn."Dean said softly, rubbing my back as I sobbed.

"I am too." I felt my knees buckle and Dean moved back to sit on the floor and hold me as I sobbed myself to sleep.

  I wasn't even awake long enough to hear Sam come in.