Why She Stayed (xxxtentacion)

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I pressed a hand to my chest shaking the thoughts away. I wasn't going to let one thing like this mess with my head. I couldn't and I wouldn't let it bring me down, no matter what she said I knew how X felt about me and something as simple as this wouldn't sway him.

I had to be strong.

I shut my eyes, blocking out the noise and just focused on calming myself. Trying to calm this heart of mine while keeping the tears from falling. I let my mind linger to the memories that made me happy and only when I looked up and opened my eyes did I notice I wasn't alone anymore.

"Hey, you." Someone tapped on my head.

I stepped back in shock. "Who are you?" My words sound rushed.

My eyes wander across the street where the guys who were there a few moments ago no longer are and instead are standing right in front of me. "Ey, I get me a bill son. I told you she was beautiful!" One of the guys speak up and high five each other.

I feel grossed out by how they speak about me without bothering to acknowledge I'm standing right in front of them. "Whats your name?" The guy who had tapped me on the head asks.

I stay quiet not bothering to answer anything. "Ey, she looks familiar doesn't she?" One of the guys say.

My eyes widen and suddenly I look away from them. "Shit, you're right."

"You're some kind of model aren't you?" He nudges me on the shoulder this time.

I shake my head, no. "She sure can pass for one."

My hands are now at my sides and I'm pinching my thighs to keep calm. "Maybe she's a freak, the quiet ones are always the freaks."

I feel his eyes wander over me in a lustful manner, not wanting to stand here any longer I attempt to walk past them but instead the same guy who had tapped me on the head takes a hold of my arm and pins me back to the wall. "We ain't done beautiful." He smiles.

I shake my head. "Leave me alone, please."

But those eyes are saying something else. "It's cool don't trip, let us show you around some places." He pushes me closer to him and throws his arm over my shoulder pinning me against him as he starts to head off the opposite direction of where I was familiar.

My heart's racing and I know I only have a matter of seconds to be able to escape these creeps. "Flor?" My heart was racing but I recognized the sound of his voice, I turn my head as much as I can and catch sight of him as he looked around for me.

A few guys were coming out too but X was looking around for me ignoring them all together. "X!" I shout.

It took a matter of seconds for his eyes to find mine, the moment we lock eyes he seems to register what's happening and looks at the guys who have no clue as to what they're about to get themselves into. "Ey! You punk ass bitches."

I try and pull myself away from his grasp but instead of letting me go he turns me around and his other friends look behind and look at X. "The fuck is this dumb ass talking to?"

"Y'all should know not to mess with what's mine." X growls.

Without uttering a warning X rushed them, the guy's don't have a moment to prepare because he had already closed the gap and landed a blow on one of the four who collapsed onto the floor.

X brought up his fists ready to fight who was next, one of the four stepped back throwing his hands up as if not wanting any trouble. The other guy though with the messy hair lunged at him but X landed a right cross on his jaw, snapping his head to the side he lost balance and tripped on his footing before falling to the ground. The guy who held onto me pushed me away with a brute force that I didn't have time to catch my fall.

X attempted to reach for me which cost him while looking at me distracted the guy who pushed me away rushed him. X was enveloped in a crushing bear-hug as the guy was trying to lift him off the ground but X was much stronger and instead hit him with his elbow on the back of his head.

I looked up from the ground at X who was on a one on one battle with the guy was now in a head lock. "Don't you fucken touch her." He smacks him over and over on the back of the head before finally shoving him away hard.

He stands a few feet away from X lifting his fists wanting more. I shake my head, wanting to go to X's side. "I was just gonna fuck her and give her back." He says with a smile.

The anger that flares in X's eyes are unbelievably immense that for a moment I see regret flash over the guys' face. X lunged at him dodging the fist that was attempting to collide with his face and instead landed a blow of his own on the guy's mouth.

His lip split open and a trickle of blood wormed down his chin and with another punch to the face he landed with back against the floor and was out cold. I could hear sirens approaching and the sound of the cops made everyone panic.

Out of exhaustion X sits on the floor his back against the wall while he tries to ease his breathing.

The group of guys that were watching it all go down begin to disperse. "X!" I shouted at him as the group of people passed me by.

I was still on the ground but now was looking for X. "Ski!" I heard X shout, through the break in the crowd I saw him nod over to me and Ski came rushing to my side.

"We got's to go Flor." Ski mutters as he picks me up off the floor.

My eyes were on X. "But what about X?" I asked.

"The boy getting the fuck out of here too." He starts walking me off to the other direction and I turn my head looking at X who has his eyes on me while he cleans the blood off his brow. A look of concern flashes over my face, he must have noticed because suddenly he's shaking his head as if assuring me he's fine.

But I'm not fine. I'm far beyond that especially when I see Jessica help him up her eyes glaring at me.

You're not good enough for him.

The words still ringing in my ears and with a smile on her face she links arms with X and walks him over to a car.

"X," I mumble to the air.

Ski pulls up to a car and pushes me into the passenger seat while he gets on the back. "Let's get out of here." Ski mutters. "Ain't about to get my ass shot tonight." He jokes as if trying to lighten the mood but all I'd rather do now is be with X.

Ski pats my shoulder. "Don't worry those idiots didn't touch my boy."

He grins up at me and I offer a small smile in response.

Why was my heart feeling so uneasy?