Why She Stayed (xxxtentacion)

X.46

1 year later

In all honesty it took so much to be able to heal and completely process just how much everything had changed.

I kept feigning to myself that it was all a bad dream. One that I would wake up from soon.

But instead the seasons contionusly changed and time passed so effortlessly that before I knew it we were even further apart.

I held onto the memories, practically clung to them. I was afraid that if I forgot or stored him somewhere deep in my heart that he'd cease to exist. That those days we spent together, those tears we shed and that love that blossomed would all be some sick and twisted lie.

But what we had was real.

It moved our hearts, but just like everything in our lives it outlived itself.

I could only see him from a distance now, could only hear his voice through earphones...a voice I longed to hear so much that I would cry myself to sleep.

Those first few months were hard without him. I had to adjust to being alone, and it sucked.

But my feelings for him never changed. I made a vow to myself that no matter what happened from now on til the day I would see him again he would always be my first love.

X would always hold a place in my heart forever until the end.

And as I continued down my path to somehow cross his in my future, life threw something my way.

Something I didn't count on.

More like someone.

Scar.

"You two make the best models and suit eachother very well." Mr. Hasakawa said.

I look from my spot to Scar who was gazing at me with soft eyes and a small smile. "I've been telling her the same thing." Scar comments.

I look away not being able to stand being the center of attention.

Scar had become an unlikely friend and helper along the way, he tried his best everyday to try and put a smile on my face.

The day I had finally returned to modeling he pulled me off to the side. "Are you okay?" He asks.

I blinked a few times peeking up at him through my long strands of black hair.

"Flor, it's okay to be sad." His smile then touched me heart. No one had told me it was okay to cry or to be sad.

My mother and Megan both told me that they were glad I finally rid myself of such scum.

"I'm here for you." He whispers while looking me in the eyes. I collapsed against him, my tears pouring out, my pain exposed. Scar held me in his arms for a while allowing me to break down in his arms and it wouldn't be the first time he let me nor the last. "From now on you have me." He urged.

But the meaning that I took from that was completely different from his intentions. I hadn't noticed then that the person holding me was not only wrapping there arms around me but his heart too...

And now here we were, fast forward to now and together we were dominating the modeling industry and he the music industry as well.

Just as things were getting wrapped up at the shoot Scar came up to me. "Come on, I'll walk you home." He smiles.

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Scar was talking about the shoot today while I stared off at the streets and houses we passed as we grew closer to my block.

I noticed though that there were a few moving trucks in our neighborhood.

No one was selling a house in our block which I found strange...

My eyes lingered over to his house. My eyes widened when I saw boxes being pulled out of the truck and into the house.

"Flor?" Scar looked at the house to me in concern.

My heart was beating at a rapid rate...he was back.

"Flor wait!" Scar tried to catch my hand but it was too late I had already dashed forward and sprang towards his house.

And the closer I grew the more confused I became.

I dashed passed the gate of the house and came to a complete stop out of breath.

Running across the lawn was a kid with a bright smile that resembled X's and a familiar face that I thought I would never see again.

Her eyes sliced into mine, she looked back at me in shock while rubbing her stomach...

Vena stood on what used to be X's lawn while she pressed a hand onto her belly that looked to be about 7 months pregnant.

-tbc-