Why She Stayed (xxxtentacion)

X.05

Before anything complicated happened between us, before anything or everything changed when it came to our hearts we were both non-believers. At first, he didn't believe in love until he fell in and out of it. And I was too scared to even try and get my hopes up to start a relationship, part of it being a fault to my past.

I was fine being comfortable where I was.

Neither one of us really knew just how much knowing that secret while it still remained a secret would bring us together.

I was always waiting for him in a way.

Whether it be when I was sitting outside reading a book, or sitting by my window. I just sort of always noticed he was near.

X always had the tendency to live a reckless life, he lived each day as if it would be his last and you rarely ever heard him say no. If it was a once in a lifetime thing he wouldn't think twice about it.

And today's spectacle was a dangerous one.

He was speeding up and down the block on a dirt bike, without a helmet, shirtless and recording himself. I shook my head at him, while I shut my book closed and headed down to the side walk to see him better.

A few of his other friends who were also on motorbikes where cheering him on. It seemed to hype him up some more so he let go of his hands from the handles and holds them out into the air shouting about something I could barely understand.

I brushed a few strands of my hair behind my ear while looking at him as he turned around once again to speed down the block but this time he headed down my direction. I started to back up a few steps confused.

My heart was already racing and he hadn't even said a word yet.

He pressed on the brakes once he was a few feet from me, looking at me with a grin on his face he said. "Get on."

I stood there for a few seconds trying to process what he was asking. It wasn't until he taps the seat behind where he's sitting that I gasp. "What, no."

He rolls his eyes. "You get to ride with me." He counters.

"Jahseh I'm not so sure that's the way I want to go..." I joke.

He frowns at me now. "What are you scared of?"

Everything.

"I can't." I tell him looking at my hands now.

I heard him sigh over the sound of the bike still purring when suddenly I see his hand shot out and grasp mine pulling me close to him until I'm beside the bike. "Just gotta live a little, you know?" He tells me handing me a helmet. "Don't worry I'll protect you."

I blushed like a fool once he turned around looking at the street, reluctantly I hop on behind him too scared to even touch him to hold myself in place. "Do you even know how to drive this?" I asked.

Jahseh turns his head back, "No." He smiled and lets out a laugh while pressing on the gas.