Why She Stayed (xxxtentacion)

X.08

I throw my purse on the cabinet and rest my hip against it, thoroughly exhausted. I've yet to recover from today's events, so much had happened today and the night was far by over. X was currently in my room inspecting every corner, nook, and cranny. Not that I minded because I felt some comfort whenever he was around, for some odd reason he made me feel safe. Besides, I've been wanting to see him and just indulge him with all the questions I have.

And since he's here now in my room what better time to ask then now. I can only hope he somehow can manage to get halfway through the questions I want to know the answers to.

"Wow." I heard him say, my eyes wander over to him seeing him lift up a pair of my favorite panties. I gasp, immediately rushing him yanking them from his hand and concealing it inside one of my drawers.

I felt my cheeks blush and seeing that smirk on his face made it even worse.

"They cute." He compliments taking a seat on my floor.

I shook my head at him and took a seat on the floor across him. X stares around my room his eyes grazing over the posters and pictures on the wall. "I thought you didn't have a boyfriend." He tells me.

I raise a brow confused by what he's saying but then I remember he'd seen me with Lucky. "Lucky's just a friend."

X laughs. "Dude didn't look at you like one."

"This was the first time we met after highschool." I continue. "Besides I think he has a girlfriend." I pause. "Just like you."

X lowered his head, his eyes meeting mine. "Vena's cool and all but I know what she's been up to when I ain't around."

I give him a questionable look. "She a cheater not a keeper." He clarifies. "I'm just waiting on the truth."

"Wait so she's cheating on you?" I ask.

X shrugs. "She could be."

I shook my head, he was so confusing.

There was an awkward moment of silence that passed on between us. I was thinking up what to say in my head while looking away. I wasn't sure if to bring up any questions I had or to just continue our previous conversation.

Just as I thought of all this I found my eyes wandering back to him and to my surprise he'd already been watching me. It made me blush like a fool because I wondered if maybe this whole time he'd been looking at me like that.

"What are you looking at?" I ask, my voice laced with amusement.

"You." The word is out of his mouth so quick that I think he probably said what was on his mind rather than thinking twice about it.

"Why?"

"You have freckles."

I twists my mouth to one side and raise a brow. "I do." I try covering up my face with some of my bangs but I end up looking weirder.

"No, I don't mean it like in a bad way. It's just...you don't even try to hide them." He paused. "I like it."

"You like it?" I repeat to myself, mindlessly.

X clears his throat a bit too loudly and I instantly remember my mom's in the room downstairs asleep and she's a light sleeper. "Shh." I whisper at him.

He must have forgotten too because he nods slowly. "Fuck. Sorry."

I laugh. "So is this a first time a guy's been in your room?"

I sigh, he's gonna think I'm a weirdo. "Yeah." I confess, looking away from him.

I heard him chuckle. "Hey..." His voice sounds gentler. "You don't have to be embarrassed. Your just one of a kind..." He pauses. "Pure."

My eyes find his again. How can he say such things with such a calm face? I could feel my heart racing and the silence, stares, and atmosphere weren't helping. "Can I ask you something?" X suddenly says.

It perks up my interest so I nod. "Did you really mean it? When you said you would go to one of my show's some day and sing back the lyrics of my songs to me?"

I gasp. How did he know that was me? "I found it on your phone." He clarifies. "You really should lock it."

I gape at him. "You snooped!" I hiss.

I grab a pillow near me and throw it at him, unfortunately he catches it and hits me back with it. I start giggling as he smacks me a few times and I end up grabbing another one beside me to smack him with. X is faster than me though, he catches my pillow and pushed me against the floor.

My body quivered with excitement as he hovered above me, starring deep into my eyes. I was still laughing that was until he suddenly turned serious and just watched me. My heart picked up its pace and I blinked at him a few times, wondering why the sudden change in atmosphere. "Hey Flor?" X asks me.

I lick my bottom lip. "Are you scared of me?"

"What?" I asked bewildered.

"Would you grow to hate me someday?" His eyes searched desperately into mine and it suddenly dawned on me that this was something that must be on his mind all the time. Something that must always trouble him.

"X I don't think I could ever fear or hate you, ever." His eyes widen as I say it. He continues to watch me as my heart continues to beat at a rapid rate all the while I felt butterflies in the pits of my stomach.

Why was I feeling this way?

He smiles at me, I push myself up on my elbows just at the same time he decides to bury his face into my stomach. "X?" I ask curious.

I felt myself stiffen, X was touching me? His head was on my stomach and I was beginning to hyperventilate like a fool. He seemed to notice so instead he pulls back and takes the seat across from me. "Sorry." He mutters.

I shake my head, sitting back in the position I was in. "Oh shit." X mutters, he pulls out his phone from his pocket. "I came to show you this."

My eyes wander over to his phone. "It's a new song I'm gonna show you." He clarifies.

I gasp, he was going to show me his new song? "Just you though...my number one."

I wasn't sure what to expect of his new music but somehow it really touched me that he even considered showing it to me.

I wondered why at first but the more I thought about that the less I began to worry so much about X seeing me in a different way because in our eyes we perceived every individuality with awe.

"I think I'm gonna cry." I tell him.

But instead of offering me any comfort he laughs in my face.

-tbc-