More than Expected

Jess's POV

I haven't seen Niall since today. He was completely right, but he didn't have to say something right there. When I went back to the hotel room, I heard the shower running. I took my phone to call my sister. Taylor answered the phone.

"Hey sis! How are you?" She asked through the phone.

"I'm good."

"How's Niall?" She asked. I sighed before responding.

"We actually broke up."

"Aww. Jess I'm sorry. What happened?" She asked.

"It was my fault."

"I'm sorry."

"Its fine. Honestly, I'm so over the whole thing. I don't even know if what I thought I felt for him was real. Everything is falling apart. I'm just so over him and all the drama that comes with it. I hate the fact that me and him never had a private relationship. I hate the fact that I never got chance to really know if I love him. I may have said it, but I don't know if I really understood the meaning. Maybe I just thought I was supposed to love him. Maybe I thought after Blake I would never find anyone else until he came along. When he came along I thought it was my only other chance and held onto it."

"No Jess, stop it we all know how you felt about him. You loved him more than you loved anyone." By now I was crying. Just then Niall walked into the living area. I told my sister I had to go and put my phone down.

"Can we talk?" He asked. I nodded and wiped under my eyes hiding any tears that may have fallen. "I don't think we can be friends anymore. I can't look at you and think of you as a friend. I need to get my life together without you and after this vacation I'm really done. I don't want to do this anymore."

"Why don't we just end this now for good?"

"That's fine by me."

"You know what Niall, I really don't think I ever loved you." He looked at me with an exasperated sigh and walked out slamming the door behind him.

Niall's POV

I just got out of the shower and I heard Jess on the phone. "Its fine. Honestly, I'm so over the whole thing. I don't even know if what I thought I felt for him was real. Everything is falling apart. I'm just so over him and all the drama that comes with it. I hate the fact that me and him never had a private relationship. I hate the fact that I never got chance to really know if I love him. I may have said it, but I don't know if I really understood the meaning. Maybe I just thought I was supposed to love him. Maybe I thought after Blake I would never find anyone else until he came along. When he came along I thought it was my only other chance and held onto it." She said sniffling. Her saying that was like someone stabbing me in the back. I couldn't even believe what I was hearing. Was I really just her rebound? I opened the bathroom door and walked out. She told her sister she had to go.

I spoke. "Can we talk?" She wiped under her eyes almost as if she was starting to hide the tears even though it wasn't working. She nodded and I continued. "I don't think we can be friends anymore. I can't look at you and think of you as a friend. I need to get my life together without you and after this vacation I'm really done. I don't want to do this anymore."

"Why don't we just end this now for good?"She responded.

"That's fine by me." Even though I didn't mean any word I was saying, This was the right thing to do

"You know what Niall, I really don't think I ever loved you." That was probably one of the worst things she could have ever said.

I walked out of the hotel room slamming the door behind me. I had nowhere to go so I slid down the door and ran my fingers through my hair. Damn. You really did it this time Niall. I could hear her weeping from the other side and I knew I had to get out of there before my heart broke even more than it already was. Why would I say anything I just did? None of it was true. I love her more than anyone can imagine and all I want is for us to be together in anyway possible. I went to Liams and he wasn't there. Of course not. The one time I really need him he's not there.