Bill Skarsgård • Roman Godfrey Imagines

You dont have to hurt

Trigger warning: body image/body dysmorphia

This is in no way to make light of this issue, I struggle with alot of these things myself as far as body image. This is simply a story and I hope it can somehow help someone if they read this and struggle with the same issues. You are not alone, enjoy❤️

Today wasn't a good day for you. You woke up with a rush of anxiety, your beautiful boyfriend sleeping soundly next to you, his honey colored sticking up in different places and his pink lips pouty.

You knew you had to work out today, harder than any other, and that's what you did. You got up, and scribbled a note for bill and nearly immediately headed for the gym.

You forced yourself to work out for around 4-5 hours, your body aching and feeling like it was about to break. But you couldn't stop there, you just couldn't. That little voice I your head told you keep going, you want to be worth it right?

You got home, an obvious wreck and sore, and began to do push-ups, as many as you could. You heard soft footsteps pad into the room. "You're finally home." Your boyfriend bill's smooth voice said, a close lipped smile on his sharp features.

"Yep, i'm here." You said simply, concentrating on your burning muscles, your eyes squeezed shut and a focused look on your red face. He noticed something was off, he felt it.

"You just spent hours at the gym, stop for a minute baby before you hurt yourself." He said sympathetically, walking over and gently tapping your back.

You fought back tears, your entire body feeling like it was on fire. "I can't." You said, strained. "Why not? Come on, take a break." He said again with a small plea in his voice.

"No! I can't!" You said, tears beginning to stream down your face, your arms shaking. He immediately knew something was wrong. You collapsed, rolling onto your back and tears pouring from your eyes.

"Y/n, baby come here." He said softly, pulling your shaking body to his warm and comforting chest, the scent of him calming you down. "Shh, it's ok." He said comfortingly, softly rubbing circles on your back.

"Talk to me princess, tell me whats going on and why you're doing this so I can help." He said, rocking you back in forth in his arms gently, trying to calm you down. You felt your hands grasping at his shirt as you tried to calm your breathing.

"I have to, if I don't, no ones gonna like me, you might not even like me." You admitted, feeling almost silly from the words finally being said out loud. His heart broke in his chest right there, holding you in his arms. He wanted nothing more than to take every ounce of your pain away, physically and mentally.

"Oh y/n, baby everyone loves you. You are so fucking beautiful it's unreal, and your heart is just as beautiful, none of that will ever change. Every day I look at you in awe and wonder how I managed to get you. You don't have to hurt darling, never." He said, tears forming in his own bright eyes.

You sniffled, lifting your head and looking up at his heartbreakingly handsome features, sharp but somehow soft at the same time. "You really mean that?" You asked, your voice breaking.

"Of course I do, always have meant it and always will." He said with a soft smile, moving a piece of hair out from in front of your face. He lifted your chin up gently with his finger, leaning in and pressing a kiss to your lips.

The kiss was full of love and adoration and complete and utter honesty. You knew he meant what he said and in that moment you felt your heart piecing back together again.

You softly broke apart, still in his arms. "I love you y/n, so much." He said, almost breathlessly as he looked down at you, feeling so much love he couldn't handle it. "I love you too bill." You said back, softly stroking his jawline with your finger.

"Come with me, I'll run you a bath ok? So you can relax." He said, helping you up as you grasped onto his arm. You softly nodded your head, as you both walked to the bathroom.

He did as he said and started the bath, filling it will bubbles making you giggle. "Thankyou bill, for being understanding. I feel stupid." You said, looking down at the floor. He walked over, his chest in front of you due to his height.

"Hey, you're not stupid. We all have things we struggle with, but we have to remember that we're worth it, and we have people who love us so much it makes their hearts hurt. Don't blame yourself ok?" He said softly, sincerity in his smooth and low voice.

You felt his strong arms wrap around you, engulfing you in a hug that made you feel completely at peace. You looked up at him, love in your eyes. "You're the love of my life bill skarsgård." You said, softly cupping his cheek.

He softly cupped your cheek back, a beautiful smile on his equally as beautiful face. "You're the love of my life too y/n. Forever and always." He replied, pressing a sweet kiss to your forehead.

You got in the shower and washed off, bill was in the other room preparing a movie and ordering food for you both. His words echoed through your mind and made you feel alive again.

He was right, and he made you feel better about every situation, and you felt so much love not only from him but for him, it was unbelievable. You no longer felt defeated, and you knew that you could make it through whatever life threw at you because this person in your life made sure you always knew you were worth it.

Hi! I hope you all enjoyed this,and I hope It delivered a good message. It's so so important to know that you are worth it, it's easier said than done to love yourself, but there's only one of you out there and that is the coolest fucking thing ever. Love all of you guys, thanks so much for the support angels❤️-xx