The Moon, The Sun, and Everything Else

Kaleidoscope

// AU //

I think--I think when it's all over,
It just comes back in flashes, you know? It's like a kaleidoscope of memories.
It just all comes back. But he never does.I think part of me knew the second I saw him that this would happen.
It's not really anything he said or anything he did,
It was the feeling that came along with it.
And the crazy thing is I don't know if I'm ever gonna feel that way again.
But I don't know if I should.
I knew his world moved too fast and burned too bright.
But I just thought, how can the devil be pulling you toward someone who looks so much like an angel when he smiles at you?
Maybe he knew that when he saw me.
I guess I just lost my balance.
I think that the worst part of it all wasn't losing him.
It was losing me

-Taylor Swift: I Knew You Were Trouble

I woke up with a headache, a really bad headache in an apartment that definitely wasn't mine. As a matter of fact, I think I've been here before. I mean, I don't remember how I got here, or who went with me, or who's apartment this is, but it seems familiar.

I stood up from the bed I woke up in and almost fell back down I was so dizzy. Once I regained my balance, I slowly walked through the hallway, but froze when I heard a voice.

"Did nobody ever tell her not to touch a burning candle?"

Avi?

"I warned her! I told her this would happen, and she didn't listen to me!"

Yep, that's definitely Avi. 

I flinched when his hand slammed against his countertop in anger. "A-Avi?" I asked quietly from around the corner. I watched as he whipped behind himself to face where I was, by then, I had started to peer around the corner.

"Kirstin Freaking Taylor Maldonado! I could say a lot worse, but--" He instantly became mad when he saw me.

"Hey!" Scott's voice cut through the bass'. "Go easy on her." I had noticed that the rest of Pentatonix was behind the countertop. 

"No chance." Avi turned back to me. "I warned you about this, Kirstie! How many times did I warn you?"

"About what?" I rubbed the side of my head. 

"Jeremy! I told you this would happen!" 

"Why don't you tell me what happened?" I sassily remarked, considering last night was a blur at this point. 

As Avi started telling me about what happened last night, it all started coming back to me in hazy flashes. 

Going out with Jeremy and a few of his friends.  Drinking. Lots and lots of drinking. Which was weird because I'm not usually one to do that.  Texting...someone...then Scott and Mitch picking me up. Then them being on the phone with...someone...then Avi picking me up and taking me somewhere, but Kevin was there too? And now...now. 

"Well, where did Jeremy go?" I asked, finally piecing the story together in my head. 

"See, that's the thing." I could tell Avi was mad. 

"Let me finish this one." Mitch stepped into the conversation. Mitch explained to me (well, this was originally told to Scott and Mitch, and now it was being told to me) that I had gone out with Jeremy and some of his friends, I told myself that I was going to be the designated driver, so I ordered a water. (Now that sounds more like me). And apparently, one of his friends had slipped something in my drink, and a bystander told the bartender, but before he could tell me not to drink it, I did. Then another bartender totally took out the friend who had drugged me, Jeremy and some other friends got into a drunken fight with these two guys playing pool, and the first bartender somehow got an incredibly manipulated me to give him my phone, and he told the two that he called the first contact in my phone, which happened to be Scott, and he came with Mitch and picked me up. 

"So...wait. He just left me?" I asked the group. 

"That's about right." 

"Well, then how did you two get here if you dropped me with Avi and Kevin? Wait, Kevin, why were you even there?"

"Oh," Kevin stepped in. "We were working on our singular parts for the new arrangement, and our ones together just to get it out of the way, because, we agreed to test record separately this time, and then Scott called us..and..yeah."

"Then Mitch and I came back earlier to check on you." Scott answered the rest of my question. 

I nodded. "Thanks, Guys, for saving me." 

"What's family for?" Everyone individually came up, and Kevin kissed my cheek in just a friendly way.

 Avi turned to me at that moment with a look of 'I told you so' to his face. "Come with me." He pulled me back to the bedroom I had started my morning in. "Here." He handed me something and a bottle of water. After hearing of last night, I quickly refused whatever this was. "Kirstie, it's Advil, I promise you. It'll curb the headache." 

I took the medicine slowly, then sat back on the bed while Avi paced before me. "I told you he was bad news, Kirst! I can't even believe you didn't see it!"

"I loved him, Avi!" I cried back. "Do you get how mad it made me when you told me to stay away from him? No, you don't because I bit my freaking words back, but here we are!"

"Yeah, here we are! Do you understand what could've happened to you? We live in a twisted little paradise, Kirstie, and pretty girls like you aren't always so safe! I know nothing happened to you past what did, but what if it did?!" He borderline screamed at me. 

"Avi..." I whispered, tears pouring down my cheeks, he'd never been so mad at me before. It was scary. 

"Who even are you anymore?!" Avi quit pacing and looked me straight in the eye. "Your music's been lacking, you haven't been giving this group your all like you usually do! This man changed you for the worse, and you can't even see that!" 

"You don't understand." I said under my breath.

"I DON'T UNDERSTAND?! I DON'T THINK YOU UNDERSTAND THAT YOU'VE GOTTEN SO LOST INSIDE OF YOUR OWN HEAD THAT YOU DON'T KNOW HOW TO EVEN ACT ANYMORE!" He actually screamed this time. "OKAY, I'M GLAD THIS HAPPENED BECAUSE IT TAUGHT YOU A LESSON! YOU NEEDED THIS TO HAPPEN TO YOU, BECAUSE YOU NEEDED TO LEARN ONE WAY OR ANOTHER!" With that he left the room, and his apartment. 

"Kirstie!" The other three came into the bedroom. "We heard what he said, and he was just scared about you, honestly, he didn't mean it." 

"Yes he did." I nodded. I knew him too well to believe what I had been told. "He meant every word of it."