The Moon, The Sun, and Everything Else

Those Things I Actually Said

A/N: Actual oneshot of last chapter ❤

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"Hey, Kirstie, I know it's late, but can...um...can I come over to your place? We...we need to talk, and, um...I think it'll go better if you're where you call home." Avi's shaky voice filled my phone speaker.

I was slightly concerned by this, but I went along with it anyways. "Sure, of course."

"Okay, I'll see you in five."

"Drive safe." I said before the call was disconnected.

What the heck was that about?

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"Hey, are you alright?" I found myself at my apartment door about five minutes later.

"Um..." Was all Avi could muster before he started pacing around my apartment.

"Avi, listen, you're family, you can tell me anything." I said calmly.

"It's just the healthy choice I had to make! I had to do this for myself, I had to do this because I don't want to slow you guys down, and I did this because my family, and it's just the--" He started bubbling over with words, but not in the ideal way.

"Woah, breathe, what are you talking about? You're giving me zero context here."

"I'm leaving Pentatonix." He stated, inhaling and exhaling for the first time the whole time I've seen him.

"YOU'RE DOING WHAT?! AND YOU DIDN'T EVEN THINK TO CONSULT US FIRST?!" I yelled. To be honest, my day earlier had been going pretty horribly, and I guess my pent up anger from earlier just took over.

"Kirstie, I had to listen to my heart, I knew I had to." He attempted to explain to me.

"NO! NONE OF THAT, NO! DO YOU UNDERSTAND EVERYTHING WE'VE DONE OVER THE PAST SIX YEARS?! NOW WE HAVE TO START OVER BECAUSE OF THIS!"

"Those six years meant everyth--"

"STOP! JUST STOP TRYING TO EXPLAIN YOUR WAY OUT OF THIS ONE, JUST STOP! IF YOU'RE GOING TO LEAVE US, THEN LEAVE ME RIGHT NOW. WE'LL FIND ANOTHER BASS, AND MAYBE IT'LL BE EASIER THIS TIME BECAUSE WE WON'T HAVE TO FLY THEM ACROSS THE COUNTRY! WE'LL FIND A BASS WHO, IF THEY WERE TO LEAVE, EXPLAIN TO ALL OF US AND MAYBE LET US HELP THEM THROUGH WHATEVER WAS HAPPENING, AND MAYBE WE ARE BETTER OFF WITHOUT YOU, AVI KAPLAN!"

"FINE!" Avi raised his voice this time. "MAYBE I'M BETTER OFF WITHOUT YOU, TOO!" With that, the door to my apartment slammed in my face.

It only took a second for me to realize what I had just said.

I just said all of that.

I found my hand repetitively hitting the wall a half of a second later. "I'm stupid. Why did I do that?!" I yelled to nobody in particular.

By now, I had forgotten to breathe, because I was so angry with myself.

I instantly became dizzy, and my whole body started to shake in sobs. I tried to pull myself out of this, but it was no use.

11:32

I remember glancing at my clock before a tunnel of darkness closed around me.

11:54

I saw when I opened my eyes to find myself on my bedroom floor.

I carefully went to my kitchen and drank half of a glass of water to recover from the fact I had just blacked out, I think, but that doesn't mean angry tears still weren't pouring down my cheeks.

I yelled a string of curse words and made my puppy so scared that she whimpered and started hiding behind the couch.

Screw it. Ran through my head as I noticed that framed picture of Avi and I had hit the ground and shattered from all the commotion in the past forty five minutes.

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I woke up the next morning with a pounding headache from all my crying.

I don't even remember if I went to sleep or just cried for eight hours straight.

I continued to wake up like that for the next five weeks. The five week mark from the day Avi slammed that door on me hit one morning, and I knew I had to do this.

My hands shook as I grabbed a pen and started writing down a letter onto paper.

Avriel Benjamin Kaplan,

I bet you don't remember those things I said the last night I saw you, the night you told me you were leaving...