Long Lost Love (Robert Downey Jr. Fanfiction)

Fear Of Death Itself

HAYLEY'S POV

"You are definitely the coolest wife and mom." Robert admitted while we barged excitedly back to the fifth floor to get our cars and guns.

"I'm not." I admitted without looking at his eyes.

It's my fault that everything is happening again. All of my past troubles are hunting me. Anton Santiago, Jack Daley and Adrian Miller. If I hadn't been such a jerk before, none of this would happen.

I may look valiant on the outside but on the inside, i'm definitely scared. Scared of what will happen. I won't let anyone die because of me again. Devon and Paul are enough and I can't bear to see any of my loved ones die. Not anymore.

If only I waited patiently for Robert before and not played with men's feelings, we will be in a park somewhere having a picnic with our little Zion.

I'm not much of a pessimist but I can't help to think that what if one of them will die? Or worse, what if my son will die?

They say that my biggest fear are water and dolls, but that's only a minor fear. What I fear most is death and affliction itself. Not mine but a loved one. I'm not afraid to die, but i'm afraid of a loved ones' death.

Everyone I truly cared for, died. My mother, Devon and Paul. Seeing Robert, my brothers and best friends fighting my battles with me makes me think that i'm a coward. That i'm putting their lives at risks just to set my mistakes right.

"I can read what you're thinking." Robert mumbled and put his hands on my sides.

I missed this way too much. I miss his touch. I miss everything that we do together. I miss him.

I looked at everyone while they're packing up excitedly and giddily. They don't know that their leader is not really a brave one. But a coward.

Stubbornness and arrogance can sometimes be overpowered by remorse and cowardice.

"I miss you." I said and we found each other's eyes. His gorgeous and calming brown eyes pierced into mine.

Robert pulled me closer to him and I pressed my head on his chest were his little bodacious chest hairs grew. I smelled his manly and intoxicating scent again. I remember this fragrance where we first kissed. It gave me chills up on my spine when I remembered everything again. How he caressed my face like it's made of diamonds and how his lips touched mine for the first time. I'll never ever get tired of loving him.

"When this is over, we'll be back to normal again. We will be a family again." Robert mumbled in my ear while he plays my hair.

"I'm scared, Robbie. This is the final stand. One or some of us will meet the doors of death soon." I admitted and held on to his white shirt. He's a little taller than me and I felt his heartbeat beating rapidly on his chest.

"Don't think that way, Hayley. Everyone will be safe. You're the bravest one here, right?" He said as our bodies never left each other. His voice gave me comfort and it made me forget about fear a little bit.

"I'm not the bravest one here, Robert. You are." I said truthfully as my head was resting on him.

That was a fact. Robert really is the courageous one among all of us. I'm just brilliant but i'm not brave. Cunning and clever, yes. But dauntless and valiant? No.

I gave up too easily when I lost the ability to walk. But Robert didn't. He gave me hope and he showed me true act of bravery.

He moved his hands slowly to my jawline and began to caress it with his thumb. His eyes never left mine and we pressed our foreheads each other. Our bodies are really made for each other. I felt like i'm a lost puzzle piece and I finally found my pair.